time flies...on a 747

So, it was 5 months ago today that I was standing on an airplane in Houston Texas. I had just travel hours and hours miles and miles, and my eyes were STILL puffy and red from crying. I felt like my heart had been wripped out and I wasnt particularly sure of the reason....

I hate when planes land and everyone stands up in the alse at the same time...its extremely caustrophobic. The only thing redeeming about this time of 'waiting in a confided space with a bunch of antsy people with cellphones' is the airlines usually pipe in some sort of radio station....

So, there I was standing in an airplane alse waiting for "the life after graduation" to literally start and THIS song ekked out of the sound system, this song really fit on December 13th 2004. I was really shocked that God would send me BACK to my "small town" especially since I had such a heart for travel....but I felt that there was good reason and I was sure that even as I left my life in New Zealand behind I was facing a new world, a new world molded from an old one....


"Breakaway"

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Tonight I am reminded of times past and I am surprised at the amazing speed that 5 months past..I am.looking to the future still wandering what I am looking to.....this song really fit on December 13th 2004 and it fits today too...I still have the desire to break out, to break free, I still feel as though I dont belong here....but for different reasons than five months ago... now I see that my life isnt about little flights...but instead One Big Flight...so this is a time of growth. My wings are growing-so one day I can fly. I can fly Home...