January 30, 2007

things I've done...

What I've done since I got home from work:

1. Listened to a lot of Hillsong and Casting Crowns ( my itunes says its on shuffle but it seems to be biased)
2. Painted my fingernails red. ( In honor of February...or something like that)
3. Made chocolate pancakes.
4. Took pictures of chocolate pancakes to send to Uncle Jim since he gave my my MEGA George Foreman Grill ( you should see it, its awesome!) and I needed to prove that I used ( and loved) my grill.
5. Read chapter 4 in the Gospel of Luke, emailed Christa about it ( we're doing a bible study via email...its cool. everyone should do it!)
6. Looked at my laundry and thought about putting it up.
7. Played on facebook
8.took pain medicine ( first time all day...that's good!)
9. washed dishes
10. put on my PJs
edit: 11. talked on the phone for 3 hours straight, thanks to Louise and Brett. :-)

One of a kind

LogoThere are:
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

January 29, 2007

It'll just keep coming...

Its familiar, I know the feeling, and more importantly I know what I'll do...
I am almost powerless to stop it....put-it-off, day-dream, think-about-something-else, check-blogs, eat-lunch-early...what'll it be this time? I dont know exactly how the denial will manifest itself, but I know it'll come.

But, ooooh how I dont want it to be like this anymore! I am so tired of the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when the slightest deadline or hardship comes up ( afterall, denial doesnt ACTUALLY work!) . Why can't I deal with this without blowing it out of proportion? Why can't I face normal stress head on?

ahhh, but then it hits...I?

Yes, the familiar feelings will just keep on coming, the lesson will keep showing up.....it'll all happen again and again... until I learn this lesson ( for God is so patient):

I just pray, I pray that I learn not to rest in my own power-that I can rejoice in my weakness-that I'll proclaim His strength-that I'll know Real Peace.

My prayer is that this verse will one day ring true in my life: "She will not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns." ( Ps. 46:5)

The Last Battle

So, I've been listening to "The Last Battle" to finish up my re-reading of the Chronicles of Narnia...ooooh its been soooo good!!

I mean, the last paragraph...well, its just beautiful!

"There was a real railway accident," said Aslan softly, "Your father and mother and all of you are-as you used to call it in the Shadowlands-dead." The term is over: the holidays have begun.
The dream is ended: this is the morning."

And as He spoke He no longer looked to them like a lion, but the things that began to happen after that were so great and beauitful that I cannot write them. And for us this is the end of all the stories and we can most truly say that they lived happily ever after. But for them it was only the beginning of the real story. All their life in this world and all their adventures in Narnia had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginnging Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before.

Now THAT is the way to end a book! Or should I say...begin?

who? what? when?

This morning when my alarm went off I was SOOOO sound asleep that it took a good five minutes for me to realize that I was, infact, a real person who needed to get herself out of bed...once I got to the bathroom I found that half my face had been transformed into this really massive red line...seriously, just HOW HARD was I pressed into my pillow to accomplish that?!

So, the end of the month is incredibly dangerous. For one thing, unless you flip your calendar early ( which is what I have to do)you dont really think about all the things for next week that you need to be working on...because, well, you can't even SEE next week...so it doesnt exist.

I have a Kiwanis Club presentation next week...I also have a newsletter to put out, a website to update, a golf tournament to plan...all sorts of things I havent ever done before that I need to pretend to know what I'm doing to pull off. Meeh. But, if there was a ever a time to practice my awesome-let's-not-stress-but-instead-rely-on-God skillz, this would be the time. So that's the plan. Feel free to keep me accountable to this! :-)

January 27, 2007

Sounds of Saturday...

warning* I doubt I'll be using complete sentences here...I just woke up from my nap...*

I'm currently lying in bed listening to the rain.....
it was absolutely PERFECT sleeping weather this afternoon.

Culling out my music is hard work...but I'm in the cold-hearted-deleting-mood. ;-) itunes is a wonderful thing.

Isnt it amazing that we are always moving forward? this morning I read my blog posts from Jan-Feb of 2006. It was so strange to think of those days-how much has CHANGED! Very little is the same as it was then...odd. But, its also extremely encouraging. Old struggles gone.
New struggles to take their place.
I wonder if its possible that I was a better blogger then? has my writing gone down hill? Let's not judge it by this post, anyway?

This afternoon I spent a little time with some really cool people-my bible study girls and their friends. They were hanging out at the park-not really park weather, unfortunately, but it was fun to see them all nonetheless...

I really need to go grocery shopping...I have, like, zero food in my apartment...its rediculous because I've eatten waaaay to much fastfood as a result. next week: I'm cooking.

January 26, 2007

..Fortunes are forever...

So, I got the lamest fortune cookie ever today:
"Cookies go stale. Fortunes are forever"

No good.

But, at the same time, my day has been pretty lame. I have sore throat and my butt is sore from the whole "running thing" yesterday. *sigh* I took a nap this afternoon in the hopes of overcoming all obstacles and feeling better. Unfortunately, the nap didnt stick.

It's too bad I'm feeling so 'without creativity' ( seriously, I gave up trying to work on my website three times...and I am suppose to write a few letters too..and THAT didnt happen either. *sigh*) because TODAY, my darling readers, is my darling boyfriend's darling birthday.
I know, and usually I get SOOOOO Excited about tribute posts!
You'll just have to bare with me when I say that the fact that it's Brett's birthday and he's waaaaay on the West Coast and I'm waaaaaay in the South is waaaaaay not cool...but it does mean that emails and phonecalls have really grown in approval ratings in the Abigail's Approval Annuals in the past few months.
So, since Brett turned 24 today, let's take this time to talk about him a little bit...

Brett is really the most fantastic person ever. And I pretty much cannot BELIEVE my good fortune that he paid even the tiniest bit of attention to me. In fact, I'm having a problem writing something that doesnt sound absolutely cheesy...all of those "he makes me want to be a better person" lines from bad romantic movies keep popping into my head! hahaha!
Nevertheless, I started to get to know Brett last year around this time and I was really blown away by his coolness. I mean, here was someone who was funny and liked to read good books-but also did really lame things like play ultimate frisbee and smoke pipes ( ok, fine, neither of those things are really lame at all...). Honestly, I was fascinated and I secretly looked forward to getting his emails and eventually his letters ( the REAL kind-that's right, it was just as romantic as it souns. haha)
I mean, Brett's emails were waaaay better than watching Prison Break season one ( which, as we all know, is wonderful)
But, just so you know, I stood firm in my pursuit of trying my very hardest to NOT get a really HUGE crush on this guy. Alas, my very best efforts were not good enough to compete with Brett's relationship with God (which continues to impress me on a daily basis) and his kindness and caring towards other people and his love for C.S Lewis and Tolkien ( yeah, I know, I'm a dork.) but the POINT was I'd found ANOTHER dork...someone who made being a dork seem waaaay cooler.
So my fight against the inevitible. It was hopeless.
And thankgoodness it was, because I've never met anyone who made me laugh this much, or think differently about things quite so well, or made my stomach do that flipfloppy thing so often.
With that in mind, I wish Brett a happy 24th year of life, he's made my life so much more colorful...

January 25, 2007

Power Pills

So, I'm extremely happy with my new medicine...although I think I'm going to use it a lot less frequently than what I was on previously ( I'll tell you why in a minute)...when I went to the pharmacy to pick them up, I was pleasantly surprised that 30 pills cost a grand total of SIX DOLLARS ( yay! finally that insurance paid off!!!)

These new pills are STRONG. I took one teeny tiny pill and within about ten minutes I started to feel drowsy...but I had already planned to walk to the gym, so I figured the brisk walk out in the beautiful weather would SURELY wake me up.
Well, it DID...
I went to the gym, worked out for 45 minutes ( longer than I usually do!) and then I sprinted home.
That's right.

I dont know WHAT happened but I started my run home and I just went faster and faster and I went farther and farther....before I knew it I was home.
Where I nearly blacked out.

So, yeah, these pills are awesome. I cant feel my legs.

I'm going to be in pain tomorrow.


Its a gorgeous day outside! Honestly, I cant wait to get off work so I can sit in the sun for a while...

In other news, talked to my doctor and I now have "affordable" meds. WOO! Much better...my faith has been restored. ( kinda)

January 24, 2007


So, yes, the link to my father's blog have been changed so that HOPEFULLY it'll work now. ;-)

I am excited to see what he's going to do! (and hopefully he'll be adding comments soon!)

failed attempts to try

I had a Java Shake for lunch....I'm waiting for the normal sugar/caffine rush to kick in and make me feel better.

It hasnt been the greatest of days, but I ultimately dont feel like complaining about it here. And instead I'll just say that I'm SURPRISED that none of you commented on the adorable advertisment with the little girl in the back of the Volvo from yesterday's post. I mean, come on! It was soooo cute!

And speaking of girliness, I watched the movie Stepmom last night...what a drama-fest! Honestly!I am surprised I didnt cry. Last week I totally would have cried...and today. Today I would have cried. But, last night I was no-emotions Girl. Last night I was hormonally-stable Girl. Today? None of the above. Today I am don't-tempt-me-with-chocolate-because-I-WILL-take it Girl. ( How are those superhero names? Not really up to x-men quality just yet, but I'll work on it and get back with you...)

So, guess what? Father-o-mine has a blog! Isnt this exciting?! You should go check it out...of course, I didnt notice any way to comment on the blog to encourage him in his efforts ( I need to mention that to him..because EVERYBODY needs feedback!)- But, there is also his website, and I think you can email him there. ;-)

I'm getting my bangs cut again today...every time I decide to grow them out-someone says something like "oh, I wish you wouldnt" and then I cave...not necessarily because of the compliments ( although, who isnt a sucker for THOSE?) but mostly because growing out bangs is possibly one of THE most annoying things under the sun. Hair in the eyes= dreadful. SO yesterday the hair the face was becoming SO beyond annoying that I called my hair guy right then and there and he fit me in for this afternoon. Good.

Oh, so I lied...I said I wasnt going to talk about the things that made today bad but I just CANT HELP MYSELF.
Pharmaceutical companies, they are evil.
In fact, since I've sworn off of poltics and I no longer spend any energy thinking that THIS politician is evil and THAT poltician is bad...I now can center ALL of my negative thoughts towards those who TRULY deserve it... Pharmaceuticals.
Yup, how would YOU like to pay $96 for 30 pills ( which you are told to take twice a day) which equals...ooooooh $6.40 a DAY...?!?! And since we're already on the subject lets just go ahead and add that to the ( doing more math in my head) $1.50 I am paying per day for the stupid anti-baby pill ( which is, incidently what I blame this mega drama-queeness on in the first place)...and NOW I am paying...$7.90 a day to keep "pain away"...which begs the question DO I really feel any better?

Well, maybe a little better...but definitely not 8 dollars a day better.
I am 23 years old and I am taking more medicine than my grandmother. This is retarded. And no, I did not buy the $96 dollar medicine because I honestly dont have that much faith in modern medicine.
I mean, what could be IN this medicine that makes it so darn good?!

January 22, 2007

When I was little...

I sat next to Mr. and Mrs. Powell in church. Apparently ( though I do not remember this) I called Mrs. Powell by the affectionate name "Powell"....nothing more, nothing less. I distinctly remember her putting her arm around while I drew "pictures of the sermon" with broken crayons, and listening to her sing the alto part when we sang hymns....when we moved church building when I was in high school we somehow moved away from sitting next to the Powell's but Mrs. Powell was one of my greatest prayer warriors when I went away to school in New Zealand-and her prayers continue to humble me and bring me great comfort as I go through lifes little lessons.

Last night Mrs. Powell called me to tell me about an ad that she had seen on TV that reminded her of me when I was little...Now, I cant really say for sure whether or not its an accurate picture of me-but what I DO know is that this little girl is TOTALLY adorable and most likely represents tons of little kids and the ramblings of their mind, and I'm a sucker for such things! How it makes your day a little more bright.

Click on the picture of the box with the little girl with the very animated face to see the ad I'm talking about!

"How bout them Bears?"

So, we allllll know what an avid sports fan I am, so the fact that pretty much the ONLY thing that the newest superbowl lineup inspires in my mind is the quote from Planes, Trains and Automobiles I am sure says a lot.

And for those of you who are worried for me since I prematurely blogged about me POSSIBLY loosing my job, well, put your little minds to rest...looks like I'll be here watching YouTube videos for a little longer. *whew* ;-)
Honestly, I should learn my lesson and not air my silly worries on my blog-because I have wonderful readers who are inevitibly going to worry about me! Sorry, I put ya'll through so much.
But, I figure everyone is lacking DRAMA from their days... haaahahahahaha.

Seriously though, this weekend I went to two "parties"...you know needless shopping disguised as a party. Yes, that's right, I spent almost $100 on who knows what(spa items and jewelry) this weekend all because of the grand lure of friends who sell things. I have no self control! *sigh*
I am now going to promise you all, here in front of everyone, that this is IT...no more random spending of money...until...ummmm....later. *sigh*

January 21, 2007

public service

So, I thought I had better share my most recent itunes playlist. Its absolutely fantastic to sleep to, since, I made the playlist, put it on play and fell promptly to sleep waking up only to my phone ringing, realizing that it had played the entire thing without me stirring.

However, just in case you would like to be awake whilest listening to music, I can atest the fact that I love all these songs-whether while conscious or not.

1.Paperweight, Schuyler Fisk and Joshua Radin
2. Here We Go Again, Ray Charles and Norah Jones
3.One of these things first, Nick Drake
4. Tennesse Walz, Norah Jones/Joel Harrison
5. Que Sera Sera, Sly and The Family Stone
6. Hide and Seek, Imogen Heap
7. Come Away with Me, Norah Jones
8. Gravity, John Mayer
9. Love me Tender, Norah Jones/ Adam Levy
10. Daughters, John Mayer
11. Pink Moon, Nick Drake
12.Northern Sky, Nick Drake
13. Cello Song, Nick Drake

January 20, 2007


What I've done today:
1. QT in the morning after some funky-fied dreams last night...seriously people...If I dream about you I pray for you. ;-)

-Katie ( scifres)...I dont think she reads this blog but, I suspect that she left for the UK without saying goodbye. My subconscious is obviously guilty about this, thus my dream :-(
-Tim and Amber...ummm....yeah, this is very odd because I've never met these people ( they are brett's bro and sis-in-law). But, they HAVE been on my mind of late....so my subconscious incorporated fake versions of them for my dreams sake. good one, brain, good one.

2. I went to Wal Mart....when I pulled out onto North St. this car flies up from behind and honks at me ( ummm.sorry, dude, didnt realize you were wanting to speed...) then the car follows me to Wal Mart. Meh.

3. Shop in relative peace, although a bunch of hispanic dudes stare me down whilest on the cereal asle....meh. Boo. Is this a cultural thing?

4. Baked cake. Did laundry. Talked to Brett. ( I put all these together since I did them all pretty much at the same time, and none of them really took THAT long. )

5. Ate too much cake. Felt sick.

6. Was extremely lazy. Watched more Melrose Place ( which I'm started to be extremely bored by, but feel I must finish for the sake of closure. never say I lack follow through) hehehe.

Be still

Be still and know that I am God... Ps 46:10

So hard to do.

January 19, 2007

"Abbey's totally awesome freak out"

That was the name of an email I sent out yesterday....It was said later, by the receiver of said email that I do a good job of marketing my craziness.


And that is why I have a blog for heaven's sake!
That being said:
So, imagine that your bosses decide to have a meeting...and they decide to do it a IHOP, instead of at your office...and let's say that you're not invited.

Question: What's your first thought?

Answer: Well, LOGICALLY my mind immediately went to the very high possibility ( nay,PROBABILITY) that I am going to be fired.


My sister always said that it was a GOOD thing that we perpetually feel as though we are going to be fired, because the worst possible thing for an employer is to have employees who think that they are indispensible. So, when you use THAT kinda logic. I am a fantastic employee....one who could easily be fired this afternoon. ;-)

Since, its also possible that I WONT be fired tomorrow, lets instead talk about drugs. I had to take a mighty dose of pain-removers ( my new name for them...sounds less menacing) last night and woke up this morning as TIRED as I was when I went to sleep... Making me regret my decision to attend a "Spa Products" party this evening.
I mean, come on! Unless this "Spa Products" party somehow is able to recreate an entire weekend at a spa (which I doubt)...than I'd rather be home, on my couch, in my PJs watching Melrose Place and eating cereal. That's right. You heard me. Anti-Social Abigail is about to rear her ugly head. ( which is Ironic...sinc just yesterday I was saying it probably wasnt a good idea for me to be alone so much.)
Oh well.
Dont worry.
I'll be going to the party. *sigh* I will probably need a party to celebrate my being fired.

January 18, 2007


Today I got to officially put Kristy's trip to Texas on my calendar! :-) Yaaaaay!
She's coming Thursday Feb. 15th Evening ( my late Valentine's present. hehehe.) and is staying through that Monday!! FABULOUS!! It has been...um, quick calculations...two years and two months since I've seen Kristy's loverly face in person. Wow. I know its going to be a wonderful blessing to have a TRUE face-to-face catch up with her.

And apparently, just so you know, it only takes two days of "normal life" where I have nothing really "pressing" coming up or to do, before I have a complete melt down.
Now, I'm not saying it wasnt something that needed to happen, and I'm also not saying that I still dont have some sorting out of personal stuff to be done-and so its a GOOD thing I dont have million and one things on my plate. But, you know what I realized? There is a serious side-affect of having a busy life. You can easily BECOME all the problems and responsibilites of others therefore replacing your OWN problems and responsibilites....its one of the most beautiful forms of denial that I have yet to find myself in. Boy, I really AM denial queen. Or maybe its not denial...its more of jsut a lack of being able to balance.
No good.

Anyway, so I've been thinking about the Leading of God...its important to continue on the path you are on until you actually get direction to turn to the right or the left ( Is. 30:21)...but when your current path seems to indicate that you'll be turning "right" and yet you havent actually gotten that particular "whisper"...does that mean you're to STILL continue down that road when you know that it is infact NOT a two sided road but that its DRIFTING to the right?
I know, that was really confusing....sorry.
I confuse myself.

And this is why I shouldnt be left alone for long periods of thinking time. ;-)

January 17, 2007

"Ah! There is a small layer of ice on my car!"

...now let's all freak out!

That's pretty much how things work in most of Texas ( at least the southern parts, where "wintery precipitation" in any form is foreign)...it makes me laugh, and midly annoyed.

I got to work this morning and the high school is in a realitive frenzy over the weather. GOOD GRIEF! It's not even that bad! Its kinda cold, there may be a little ice here or there, but let's not go buck wild over it!

Anyway, that's pretty much what the goings on have been like as of the last two days. Havent been doing particularly much at work ( read: nothing). I need some sort of a "boost" I think as far as what needs to be done. *sigh* Since i feel there is, in fact, NOT much to be done.

So, hey, here's some totally exciting news...My mother and grandmother where on the FRONT PAGE of the paper this morning!!! Hahahaha! When I saw it I burst out laughing!! I dont know when it was that I developed a sort of twisted delight in my small town life...but I really DO love what is considered FRONT PAGE NEWS around here. Although, I do give major props to the photographer for creating "atmosphere" and a look of "drama"...both things that I feel were decidedly missing from the actual event. ;-)

I am looking forward to my lunch break where I plan to go home, eat leftover pizza and watch the first season of Melrose Place. Yes, friends...I have sunk that low. And I'm not even ashamed in the least. ;-)

January 16, 2007

I was tagged again....

Well, everyone knows I love to do these things ;-) hehehe...so I was tagged by my loverly Aunt Donnave...so here it goes:

The Number Four
A)Four Jobs I have Had In My Life:
1. LIfe Guard
3. Radiologist assistant
4. Alumni Coordinator

B) Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. Finding Neverland
2. French Kiss ( because I have watched it over and over)
3. Lady and the Tramp
4. Its a Wonderful Life ( every SINGLE Christmas, at least once)

C) Four places I have lived:
Dunedin, New Zealand
Nacogdoches, Texas
THAT'S IT! I'm pretty stationary so far in my life, aye? ;-)

D) Four TV shows I love to watch:
The O.C. ( although I will totally lie and say I dont watch this if asked. hahaha)
Lost ( because its so crazy and addictive)
Grey's Anatomy
Gilmore Girls ( though not so much anymore...)

E) Four places I have been on vacation:
"The I *heart* New Zealand Road Trip" of 2004, and the "Remember me? Trip

F) My favorite foods:
I love Indian food...butter chicken...its a classic.
I'm allllll about Thai food ever since Thida visited
You can never ever go wrong with a large pepperoni pizza
I'm a fan of homemade bread in any way shape or form

G) Four places I would like to be right now:
New Zealand: specifically Auckland, Dunedin, Wellington ( I know that's cheating!)
Hong Kong
Fort Lewis, Washington
Somewhere WARM. My feet are SO CRAZY COLD RIGHT NOW

On another note: I had one of THE best lunch dates with my sister today, God is AMAZINGLY faithful...

well kids, I'm back!

So, sure, I totally froze my butt off last night, as I huddled under every blanket I owned. I hadnt been in that cold in a house since...I lived in New Zealand and visited Louise who for whatever reason lived in a flat that "didnt heat their rooms". Crazy kids. ;-)

Anyway, I called my landlord at 7am this morning and he "fixed the heater"...the thermostate wasnt making the fan connected to the heater turn on. Who cares. It wasnt working that's all that matters. I dont care why.
So, the fact that my house was getting all warm and toasty as I was heading out the door makes the fact that my office is FREEZING just that must worse.
My toes. My fingers. Numb.


But, that's not the point...the point is that no matter how nasty the day seems to be, I really DO want to tell you about my weekend.

So, here goes:
In case you missed it, I went to a Navigator's conference in upstate New York. My main reasons for going were... Brett wanted me to go and because the best way to really understand something is to not just HEAR about it but experience it...so it was really perfect that I would get to experience ( to a degree) the two things about Brett that I have just about NO reference point to go on. The Navigator's Military Ministery and the Military ( plain and simple).

Its probably going to be hard to fully explain what I learned about those two things...because there was just so much, so instead I'll just say this. I was really impressed by the Navigator's level of commitment. commitment in pretty much ever aspect of their lives. We're talking serious discipline to their Faith and acting upon that faith. Which, I guess makes since, the military is all about discipline so that just filters into every aspect of their lives. Its just how their minds work.
But, I was totally inspired in my own walk with God, I was able to see the areas that I've become generally slack in and was very much convicted to pull those things out and actually work on them. So that's good....you dont have to be in the military to get something good out of what was said! ;-)

I also found it rather overwhelming in a lot of ways, I was suprised how intimidated I could become! It was just constant hardcoreness...in conversation with people, in the speakers, in my own mind trying to take everything in and process it....But, you know what?! Just when I was starting to think I had been silly to think I could "hang with this crowd" ( I mean, what does a girl from texas ( and, no, not fort hood) who has a BA in communications and english and who was involved in a very charismatic ministry in New Zealand where things were more about "feelings" than "facts" have to say in this kind of enviroment?!) ....I got a phonecall from Lydia on my cell phone. Yay! A familiar voice! Someone who knows me, and loves me...I cant TELL you how much better that'll make you feel when you start to listen to your own tired head and its doubts and fears.
So, that gave me the much needed perspective and boost that I needed to keep going and really enjoy my weekend. God is so faithful, isnt He?

I have some other thoughts, but I think I'll dwell upon them a bit longer before feeding them to the blogging world.

PS. As you can see comments arent happening on this post-but feel free to email me! I've missed my blogosphere while I was away! ( four days without the internet made me realize how NICE it is not to be in constant communication. )

January 15, 2007

the real world.

I know, I know, its a shame really because I had a fantastic weekend away from the internet, nay from the whole "real world"...but such things are now over and I will write about them as soon as I get over all the "ugginess" that is this evening because...

I'm home.

Wish I wasnt.

My heater is broken.
Its freezing in Nacogdoches.
I ate too much. Felt sick. Own fault.
Got bad mail from my health insurance, why are they so stupid?
My Friends. I worry too much about them.

January 11, 2007

after working for four days...

It's about time I had a holiday, right?

But, I AM heading out of town tomorrow....so of course I'm cleaning my house because it really needed it and what if I died or something? I would hate for all the moarners to have to clean my house on top of morning my loss.


oh well, I'm half kidding. Besides if I seriously thought about dying I'd probably have a will or something. It would have important stuff like who gets my shoes ( the answer: whoever can fit into them.) and would someone please burn my journals.

Seriously, how did I get on this topic?! Sorry.

In other news I get to see Brett tomorrow. eeeee!

January 10, 2007

Shut that door!

So, just so you know...my heater seems to be working, kinda.

And in other news, I had two fantastic coffee dates today......probably a good thing too since I hadnt gotten to hang out with either gals in for evers because of the busy-ness that has been my life of late. *sigh*
Will be glad to get back into things with them both next week!

Have I mentioned how confused ( about life) I am at the moment? Sometimes I feel like all the arrows are pointing one way, and then the next minute its like, "weeeeellll....maybe not....have you considered THIS option?!"

So, it was nice when I read Streams in the Desert tonight and it was all about being guided by the Holy Spirit with the use of SHUT DOORS. I loved it so much...its my new slogan as I head into the unknowness of this year, "SHUT THE DOOR, HOLY SPIRIT!"...its a comforting thought since I'm so very adverst to making mistakes....and the thought that I could mess something up really doesnt make me happy ;-)

I'm already getting the vibe that 2007 is going to be more complicated than one would like...but then again, since when has life EVER been simple? Ah, last year...i think 2006 was pretty straight forward. All that letter writing...it kept me busy. All that second guessing of the letter writing...it kept me even busier.
Those were the days. ;-)

I'm being sarcastic just in case you didnt notice....I'm remembering that 2006 wasnt so easy to get through either...and it ended up rather well...so here's to 2007, shut doors and one open one!

cold feet.

My heater is broken...or at least I'm pretty sure it is, since the thermostate reads that its 62 degrees and yet its set on 70...every so often it makes this whirring noise as though it really wants to turn on but just cant get up the strength to do it.

Its COLD in my house.

Of course, it makes PERFECT sense in the world of Abigail's Bad Luck that my landlords went out of town yesterday to not return until Friday.

Probably one of the reasons I have a cold.

In other news, I'm trying to inspire myself to work on my work's website. BLAH. If only it could be as cool as it is in my head! :-(

I'm getting all excited/nervousy about my trip this weekend...
for those of you who dont know, I am heading to upstate new york on Friday to go to a...ummm...retreat? conference? ( honestly, dont know what to call it) thing with Brett. Its exciting because its a Navigators event, which is the ministry that Brett is involved in and pretty passionate about. Basically this weekend I should be able to see what "all the fuss is about"...and meet a few of the people that have really made an impact on his life the last year or so...which is, you know, slightly important in understanding who Brett is.. Which, you know, is sorta what I'm into these days. ;-) So, yes, very excited!

I'm "nervousy" because-lets be honest, who likes to go into a situation full of things one doesnt know anything about? Heck, I couldnt even tell you what this is that I'm going to!! *sigh* Let's go with calling it a retreat...because that sounds more relaxed. Oh, and let's also not forget that Abigail is still "learning her military basics" and that she will mostly likely be surrounded by all sorts of military minds...which makes her nervous.

I will probably have to give myself a peptalk about how, "there are all types of people in the world, and that everyone secretly would like, nay love to have a girly-girl who talks when she's nervous, has a runny-nose, no experience with the ways of the military and a tendency to overthink, around to make life more interesting."

Yes, I feel better already. *ahem*

January 09, 2007

Fill the Void

So, before Thanksgiving Thida came to visit...and ever since my life has been full.

And then, on January 7th I went home and back to the "real world"...and honestly, it was SHOCKING when my sister asked me what I was doing tonight and I said, "nothing"....

I cant remember the last time I said that.

In a small way its kinda nice to do laundry and make mix CDs for my friends, talk on the phone and paint my fingernails....


I woke up at 6:30 this morning...probably because I'd had pretty much exactly eight hours of sleep and my body was like, "come on, already, you really need MORE?!"
or maybe ( and this is more likely) it was because my nose was totally and completely blocked and my mouth was wide open gasping for breath and the lack of oxygen to the brain sent my poor body into overtime with finally the last resort of waking me up so I'd deal with the situation.

Anyway...went back to sleep and was somehow late for work this morning. go figure.

Isnt this delightful, blog-worthy, material?!

Ok, something new: last night I worked on several mini writing projects that have been hanging over my head for weeks...I would have probably finished them ( because they were that fun), but it turns out that these two writing projects had to be done BY HAND..and so my hand got all schriveled up and unhappy and I had to stop or my words would become messy past recognition.

There I was on my couch surrounded my tissues, looking at facebook pictures when I came across a friend of a friends picture and it was then and there that I vowed to moisterize and sunscreen myself every day for the rest of my life if only to be a tiny bit that gorgeous...of course, I immediately failed this morning...since i had time for neither. No matter...I'm pretty sure it was genetics not sunscreen that made her skin so fabulous. ;-)

I need caffine pronto...today's busy.

January 08, 2007


I just spent the last hour reading haloscan forums trying to figure out a way to get my commenting feature back on my blog. blasted all...
its just no good! So, until some uber computer nerd ( said with love) figures out a way to bypass the system, I am forced to have boring comments.

I am very upset, mostly with myself for being SO RASH and getting a new template in the first place.

Should have known better....such things never turn out.

Just had beans and rice for dinner....took me back to my childhood I tell you. ;-)

I do not want to talk about it.

As you can see, I have a new layout. I really just wanted a color change, but with the evilness that IS the new Beta-Blogger....that totally didnt work out, instead I am stuck with total newness...which includes missing comments.
I mean, SURE, i could go to Blogger comments...but that would mean that blogger has won.

So, I press on and until then, you can ALWAYS just email me.

January 07, 2007

Part ways

So, I said goodbye to Sam today....leaving him in the very very capable hands of the Cleburne Crew....now that I know there is a plan to take pictures with Sam and all the "pretty texas girls"....I know that everything will turn out ok. ;-)
Of course, this did not make it any LESS sad to be leaving, knowing that Sam would be in texas for three more days....such a waste, me going back to work and all! boo.

But, back to work I go....with a very developed little cold. Yes, Sam gave me a cold as a going away gift. Sweet of him. I realized I hadnt really HAD a cold in at least a year, it probably takes some strange New York/New Zealand strand to really get me. hehe.

I am in bed now, with sprite and tissues and books. Went to Barnes and Noble last night...bought several books, one of which was recently mentioned on Brett's blog, The Martian Chronicles....so I am looking forward to reading THAT....plus I also picked up a very random book called "Unusual Suspect", which is the story of Stephen Baldwin....ummm.....yeah. The actor. I know. Random. Right? But, his story of becoming a Christian in his late thirties and then the ministry that he felt called into after that....is pretty fascinating. I am not far into the book yet, but I'll give you a play-by-play once I am finished.

Ooooo.....cold medicine taking affect.....mmmmmmm.....must try and stay awake....

January 04, 2007


So, it took us from 9am till 9:30 pm, with the help of a LOT of junk food to watch all three extended edition Lord of the Rings...it is a testimony to their greatness that I wasnt tired of them in the LEAST even at the very end.
With that said I am totally tired! Who new sitting all day would make you so tired?!

But, I got tagged this afternoon and I NEVER ignore such things so, Christa...this is for you :-)

Name? Abigail
Single or Taken? taken
Eye color? blue/grey/green
Height? 5'6"
What are you wearing right now? Pajama pants and a t-shirt
Animal? cat
Drink? tall latte no foam
Month? November
Juice? Cranberry
Favorite Cartoon? Family Guy
Favorite band? DONT MAKE ME PICK!
Given anyone a bath? yes, while babysitting
Bungee Jumped? yes
Made yourself throw-up? yes...but my gag refex is way too good...so it just made me feel even MORE sick!
Skinny dipped?No
Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes.
Broken a bone? nope
Played truth or dare? Yes.
Been in a physical fight? ummm...I dont know what really counts, so I'm going to say no.
Come close to dying? yes. just recently I car nearly killed me...it was INSANE to see the grace of God.
Been in a hot tub? Yes
Fallen asleep in school? too many times.
Been suspended? No
Run away? No
Cried when someone died? yes
Fallen off your chair? yes, if the time Amy pulled the chair out from under me counts. ;-)
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call? no, that sounds awful! :-(
Saved AIM conversation? yes
Made out with JUST a friend? no!
Used someone? Not as far as I have been aware
Been cheated on? No
Beside you? the couch cushion
Last thing you ate? pizza...mmmmmm
Chicken pox? Yes
Sore throat? Yes
Stitches? Yes.
Broken nose? No
Believe in love at first sight? No, I think people mistake LUST at first sight as love sometimes...
Long distant relationships? yes, thankgoodness
Question yourself? Yes.
Who was the last person that called you? my sister Anna
Who makes you smile the most? probably Brett
Do you like filling these out? sure, why not?
Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? I actually really love my glasses...most of the time.
Do you get along with your family? Yes, I am truly blessed.
What did you do today? Watched ALL THREE EXTENDED EDITION LORD OF THE RINGS...and thats it. ;-)
What car/truck do you wish to have? Mini cooper....red please.
Have a lava lamp? Nope
How many remote controls are in your house? two
Scary or funny movies? Funny, hands down
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Rootbeer or Dr. Pepper: root beer
Summer or winter: summer
Silver or Gold: Silver. or White Gold.
Diamond or pearl: Diamonds
Sprite or 7up: Sprite, definitely
Coffee or tea: Coffee
Phone or in person: in person....nothing compares.
Talk to someone you like? yes
Get sick? No
Talk to an ex? I dont have an ex.
Miss someone? Yes.
Slept in your bed? Me
Saw/heard you cry? Emma
Made you cry? Emma...hahaha...it wasnt really HER...she was just THERE when it happened.
Hugged you? Sam when I picked him up at the airport
You said "I love you" to? Emma when I dropped her off at the airport
Been in a fight with your pet? hahahaha...yes.
Been to Hawaii? no.
Been to Canada? No
Been to Mexico? no ( this is getting sad!)
Been to New York? yesssss....I want to go back.
Do you have a crush on someone right now? Yes absolutely. ;-)
What book are you reading now? Ella Minnow Pea
Want to get married? yes
Future kids names? yes, I'd definitely like my kids to have names....thanks for asking.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No
What's under your bed? dust
Favorite sports to watch? ice hockey...although I rarely have the chance to watch it.
Favorite Location? In the WORLD? Are you kidding?! I cant pick just ONE!
Tattoos or piercings? Ears
What are you most scared of right now? asking off work for next friday!
Who do you really hate? Denathor
Do you have a job? yes, I am a grown up. ;-)
Are you lonely right now? no, far from it...
Song that's stuck in your head right now? Move Along, All American Rejects....its been in my head for a WEEK.
Have you ever played strip poker? No.
Have you ever been on radio/TV. yes, both...famous, I know...
Have you ever been in a mosh-pit? yes, I thought I was going to pass out.
Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you? Yes.
Your Favorite Food? pizza
Ever get so drunk you don't remember? not that i remember
Are you too shy to ask someone out? No, but that is not a girls job!
HardHugs or Kisses? that hard hug thing sounds violent
Dogs or cats? cat
Favorite Flower? i like most flowers
Have you ever fired a gun? yes
How many pillows do you sleep with? four...I like to feel surrounded, its comforting
Do you think any of your ex's miss you? I dont have one

January 03, 2007

No Excuse.

There is no excuse not to give it my all, live my very best, pray harder, read more of the Word....in fact, once I realized it, all of my excuses were silly and didnt hold a drop of water. And yet they had kept me "busy" for days upon days.
Dry and Parched is the only way to discribe how I have become.

This year I picked up an old friend to re-read for 2007. "Streams in the Desert Devotional" helped me through 2003 and 2004 ( its written on the inside cover)...and I am delighted to be reading it again.

In "pastures green"? Not always; sometimes He
Who knowest best, in kindness leadeth me
In weary ways, where heavy shadows be.
So, whether on the hill tops high and fair
I dwell, or in the sunless valleys, where
The shadows lie, what matter? He is there.

In "reading" ( actually listened to in the car) The Silver Chair recently I was struck by the beautiful picture of Jill standing by the waters edge, dying of thirst and yet "scared" to drink because of the Giant Lion standing in her path...He keeps offering her to come and drink and yet her own silliness keeps her from the water of Life..until finally His call gets through....how true, how true-and not just in Fiction!


In other news, the grand plan that first came into being back in 2003.... is finally going into action tomorrow! Sam and I will finally watch ALL THREE Extended Edition Lord of the Rings movies back to back ( all 11 hours and 23 minutes)....yes, others will be coming and going...but only the truly HARD CORE will make it through! Wish us luck! :-)

January 01, 2007

Go ahead...ask me.

20 Questions about the Year 2006
1) Where were you when 2006 began?
I was in some barn outside of Nacogdoches with a whole bunch of random people most of which I barely knew…but it was fun and it turned out to be sort of important since said event led ( much much later) to my relationship with Brett.

2) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
It wasn’t one particular moment, but a whole BUNCH of moments…I was sick for a good portion of the year.

3) What was your favorite moment of the year?
When Thida saw me for the first time after two years and yelled out that I was “half of myself”…which was really inappropriate and therefore extremely funny.

4) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were
I went to Houston with Thida and Anna for shopping and an Imogene Heap concert…it was fabulous and I turned 23 which was less fabulous ( I don’t like odd numbers).

5) Where you in a relationship in 2006?
Indeed. Very exciting.

6) Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?

7) Did you make any new friends in 2006?
Absolutely, I think my favorite new friend is Briana, who joined our Bible Study this year…she’s hilarious and great to hang out with.

9) What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your
memory, and why?
September 20th. I made special note of the date, because I am a girl and that’s what girls do.

9) Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
Yes, I went to New Zealand…and it was glorious

10) What was the best book you read?
Blue Like Jazz was probably one of the most fun and yet thought provoking books that I read this year

11) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
It seems to be my lot in life that so many of those I care about are far away.

12) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
mmm…didn’t see many movies in 2006, or at least not many memorable. Pride and Prejudice, Scanner Darkly, The Prestige

13) What was your favorite song from 2006?
Hide and Seek, Imogene Heap ( probably why I was so happy to go to her concert.)

14) Who were you most thankful for in 2006?
All of the people God has placed in my life “for a time as this”…but maybe Carmi has been of the most emotional help to me this year-she’s always been on instant messenger at all the moments that I seriously thought I was going insane. ( she told me that I wasn’t).

15) What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done
I had surgery. With the tube down my throat and everything. Kinda scary.

16) What was your proudest moment of 2006?
I overcame a great deal of personal doubt and fear to do a good job in my first real “professional job”.

17) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
Oh, there are sooo many moments, but maybe when I broke down and cried in the doctors office in front of a waiting room full of people.

18) What valuable life lesson did you learned in 2006?
The Lord is ever faithful and His mercy abounds.

19) What are your plans for 2007?
2006 was one of those years that didn’t really have many OUTSTANDING kind of days, but it was filled with a lot of growth in a personal kind of way…I am able to see how God truly helped me through some of my toughest personal battles and for that I am excited to see what He will do this coming year. My plan is to search out those secret places and bring them into the light. Scary…but exciting.

20) What were you doing when 2006 ended?
I was sitting on my sister’s couch talking about Titanic with some delightful friends. It was not a particularly profound moment, but fun nonetheless.