October 31, 2005
I am back in Nacogdoches, after the longest three hour drive EVER. Uggg....rain the whole way :-(
I had a delightful time ( it was everything I needed it to be AND MORE)...and I am sure I'll tell you all about it tomorrow, but for now I am off to take a hot hot shower, unpack...and give candy to trick-or-treaters. wooooooooooo!
October 28, 2005
October 27, 2005
October 26, 2005
I went and got the oil changed on my car. And I went to the hardware store.
I hate getting my oil changed, because EVERYTIME I go they try to tell me I need something ELSE done to my car...now, i wasnt born yesterday, and I am not about to get anything but my oil changed at an oil changing place...everything else gets to be done by my normal car doctor ;-) ...but I HATE that they always try to sell me other stuff...because, technically they COULD be telling me the truth, and I really COULD have a huge problem with my car...but I wouldnt know. That's one of the reasons I hate going...the OTHER is I HATE having to pull over that big hole in the ground...where they go under and look at the bottom of my car...I hate watching the guy with the oily hands and shirt directing me to come forward, leeeeft....nooo...riiiight...no, wait! Stop! Stop!
I always mess up...I always have to be told to stop and try again.....boo.
I also hate going to the hardware store...because i have NO IDEA about anything that they sell there. I pretty much have to rely on the staff to direct me where I need to go...and I KNOW that as soon as I walk in, everyone in there knows I dont belong.
It is really only on days like this that I wish I had a boyfriend....someone who I could ask sweetly to go with me on these little manly adventures. Seriously. Most of the time, I am JUST FINE on my own...and, well, I guess technically I was fine today too...but, well, I felt sick and my throat hurt...meeeeh.....and just wanted to go home and go to bed.
Today, I needed a Mommy to take car of me and a boyfriend to do manly tasks for me.
October 25, 2005
And all these years later I can read through all those comments and smile at my fifteen year old self ! :-) So, Amy, Tiffany, Emily, and Jodee...thanks for making the words of T.H. White bareable.
Now, last night I read arguably my FAVORITE chapter in The Fellowship..."Lothlorien" here are my fav. quotes from this WONERFUL passage:
Boromir: "But of that perilous land we have heard in Gondor, and it is said that few come out who once go in; and of that few none have escaped unscathed."
"Say no unscathed, but if you say unchanged, then maybe you will speak the truth, said Aragorn. "
About sleeping up in the trees:
I hope, if I do go to sleep in this bed-loft, that I shan't roll of, (Pippin) said.
Once I go do get to sleep,' said Sam, "I shall go on sleeping, whether I roll off or no. And the less said, the sooner I'll drop off, if you take my meaning."
" Alas for the folly of these days! said Legola. "Here all are enemies of the one Enemy, and yet I must walk blind, while the sun is merry in the woodland under leaves of gold!"
Said of Lothlorien: The world is indeed full of peril and in the it there are many dark places, but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it grows perhaps the greater."
"A light was upon it for which his language had no name. All that he saw was shapely , but the shapes seemed at once clear cut, as if they had been first conceived and drawn at the uncovering of his eyes, and ancient as if they had endured forever. He saw no color but those he knew, gold and white and blue and green, but they were fresh and poignant, as if he had at that moment first perceived them and made for them names new and wonderful. In winter here no heart could mourn for summer or for spring. No blemish or sickness or deformity could be seen in anything that grew upon the earth. On the land of Lorien thee was no stain."
Aragorn to Frodo:
"Here is the heart of Elvendom on earth, and here my heart dwells ever, unless there be a light beyond the dark roads that we still must tread you and I. Come with me!" And taking Frodo's hand in his, he left the hill of Cerin Amroth and came there never again as living man."
*whew!* Now THAT that gives me goosebumps!
October 24, 2005
Then, through Carmi I met her friend Merissa from South Africa...who Carmi hasnt actually SEEN since she was like 12 or something...but that doesnt really matter because she's got a blog...and I read it....and turns out she has a heart that I understand...and besides, she says "Blast"...which we all know is one of my favorite things to say...now, she's become a regular on "The Panel" discussion group ( I just came up with that name by the way, but it works)...
...Then there was the random comment from Sarah, who turned out to have a really awesome blog filled with quotes that delight the soul....and so I replied to her comment...and then I actually got mentioned in her most recent post ( which in blogger world is the utmost exciting thing)....
And now there's this person who Carmi ( again!) came upon whilest blog surfing...and thus "recommended" me to....I just read the person's blog and I thought...wow, they seem really cool too...
Is it ODD that I am starting to find these "internet" people totally interesting?! I guess if I find myself spending ALL of my time on the internet instead of with real, live people...well, then we've got ourselves a serious problem-but till then...
Who else havent i met?
Now, to being "normal" again: I've spent the evening knitting and listening to Billie Holiday...I'm thinking about a cup of tea...I am feeling down right cozy...hey, and did I mention I am back to wear in my NZ hoodie again? Yay! Security Blanket that you can wear! :-)
Lead on, O King eternal,
The day of march has come;
Henceforth in fields of conquest
Thy tents shall be our home.
Through days of preparation
Thy grace has made us strong;
And now, O King eternal,
We lift our battle song.
Lead on, O King eternal,
Till sins fierce war shall cease,
And holiness shall whisper
The sweet amen of peace.
For not with swords loud clashing,
Nor roll of stirring drums;
With deeds of love and mercy
The heavenly kingdom comes.
Lead on, O King eternal,
We follow, not with fears,
For gladness breaks like morning
Whereer Thy face appears.
Thy cross is lifted over us,
We journey in its light;
The crown awaits the conquest;
Lead on, O God of might.
October 23, 2005
So here are tonights "day" dreams:
1. I wish...that I could go to New Zealand in January and roadtrip down to Dunedin with Emma and Lydia when they head back for summerschool/job.
2. I wish...I could go watch Sam perform in Beauty and the Beast.
3. I wish...I could go spend New Years with Kristy ( and crew!) in Hong Kong.
4. I wish....I could go to South Africa with Carmi when she goes to stay with her father at his house by the sea.
5. I wish...I could sit down and have long conversations with Tabitha....and Penny.....and Louise.....and SO MANY others....
Because ultimately I want to hug my friends, laugh with my friends ( face to face), I want to talk for hours...I want to pray with them...and be able to reach out and touch them....I want to have multiple coffees with them....I want to look at their beautiful little faces....
Instead, I'm going to take some drugs for these cramps, read some LotR and go to bed, so I can get up and go to work tomorrow....
Whoa, so this post sounds really depressed-but, I'm not...I really am not. I mean, I just read over my wishes...and I realized how truly truly blessed I am to HAVE such friends to miss! I mean, how wonderful! How blessed! And I also feel sure that even if I dont get ANY of the above wishes ( which, well, lets face it...I probably wont)...I am still perfectly satisfied with what I've been given....it just makes it a lot more dramatic when you contrast the amazing wishes with a little bit of the everyday...
But, I shant forget, without the everyday....those days on the beach in Fiji just arent as special :-)
October 22, 2005
but there's just a little bit more to treasure before its over...and then on to the next!
Merry: "You can trust us to stick to you through thick and thin-to the bitter end. And you can trust us to keep any secret of yours-closer than you keep it yourself. But you cannot trust us to let you face trouble alone, and go off without a word. We are your friends, Frodo."
This is pretty famous nowdays...but its WONDERFUL, and gives me chills every SINGLE time I read it:
All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
This one has personal meaning...and it really struck me this particular read through:
" I have," said Strider. "I dwelt there once, and still I return when I may. There my heart is; but it is not my fate to sit in peace, even in the fair house of Elrond."
Gandalf about Frodo: "Still that must be expected," said Gandalf to himself. "He is not half through yet, and to what he will come in the end not even Elrond can fortell. Not to evil, I think. He may become like a glass filled with a clear light for eyes to see that can."
This is what I want my dream house to be like:
...The Last Homely House east of the Sea. That house was, as Bilbo had long ago reported, " a perfect hourse, whether you like food or sleep or story-telling or singing, or just sitting and thinking best, or a pleasant mixture of them all."
This is what I think angels must be like:
Glorfindel was tall and straight; his hair was of shining gold; his face fair and young and fearless and full of joy; his eyes where bright and keen; and his voice like music; on his brow sat wisdom and in his hand was strength."
They spoke no more of the small news of the Shire far away, nor of the dark shadows and perils that encompassed them, but of the fair things they had seen in the world together, of the Elves, of the stars of trees, and the gentle fall of the bright year in the woods."
'Despair or folly?' said Gandalf. 'It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not."
Aragorn: "We have passed no place on the way up that offered more shelter than this cliff-wall we are under now."
"Shelter!" muttered Sam, "If this is shelter, then one wall and no roof make a house."
October 21, 2005
7 things I plan to do:
1.Write a novel...or something
2.Have a house where lots of people can come and say.
3.Learn to cook ( better).
4.Find a "hot holy boy" ( thanks for that, Carmi)
6. Go back to NZ...at least for a visit.
7. Watch all three Extended Editions of Lord of the Rings in one sitting
7 things I can do:
1. Carry on conversation with just about anyone.
2. tell a story on demand
4. have a cheerful voice on the phone no matter what my mood is.
5. cross just one eye
6. dance..when no one's watching
7. sing...in the shower
7 things I cant do:
1. Drive a car manually
2. Play the piano in public ( I can play in private)
3. Write with my righthand
4. rollerskate ( I have weak ankles ok!)
5. Talk on the phone and blog at the same time ( I've tried..its not possible)
6. Balance my checkbook without a calculator ( even then it takes HOURS)
7. Eat italian food while wearing a white shirt ( I WILL get sauce on it!)
7 Things that Scare me:
2. drowning in a car
3. something bad happening to my friends
6. ending up with a horrible east texas accent
7. The Kool-aid mascot
7 Random things About me:
1. I have freakishly small feet
2. I can write backwards ( you can read it in a mirror)
3. I was a competitive swimmer for 10 years
4. I'm 5'6
5. I just have one sister.
6. I had ringlets until I was, like four, when I got my first haircut...and they never came back
7. I hate celery
7 Things I say:
2. Wooo wooo.
3. Speaking of...
4. Like nobodies business
5. Crazy pills
7. Crazier than a coconut
October 19, 2005
Today, after a loooong day at work where I ate only a little bag of chips and a cupcake, I was insanely irritated and ready to get home and make dinner ( low bloodsugar anyone?) ....I drove into the apartment complex just in time to see two cars in line for the gate...the first one put in the code and we all waited for it to slowly open...and then the inconcievable happened:
The car in front of me DID NOT go on through with the first car, but instead stopped in front of the security box and put in THEIR code!!!!!!
I couldnt believe it! These people were needlessly slowing down the process of me getting home and making dinner!
I threw my hands up in disgust whilest saying, " I cant believe it!"
At that exact moment, the person in the car in front of me, made eye contact with me in their rearview mirror...and, with great horror...I realized it was the evil neighbor that lives under me ( best known for her appearence in "okra vs. greenbeans" and "the owner of the evil dog")
As we drove through the gate ( I did NOT put in my code...but followed her through like a normal person) I tried to decide what to do....drive slowly so that she has time to get home and get in her house?....wait in the car while she gets out, and avoid eye contact until the coast is clear?
I finally decided on a plan I thought had to be foolproof....the famous ( yet never used by me before) trick of the "fake phone conversation"
I arrive at our parking spots, get my phone out and begin my fake conversation as I get out of car and prepare to pass Evil Neighbor on the way to her door....
Me( into my phone): " Ooooh, I KNOW! I couldnt believe it either, *pause for fake person to respond*...mmmmhmmmm...."
( things were going well, and I was almost past E.N. when....
she turns and says :
( remember the hick accent)
EN: Excuse me?
Me: Yes? ( and then into my fake phone: "Hold on just a sec." )
EN: I just wanted to let you know why I didnt go through the gate with the first car....
Me: Oh!? ( trying to act suprised/innocent )
EN: Well, it is the RULES that we put in our OWN code everytime we go through the gate, and they are about to put up SECURITY CAMERAS to make sure everyone does.
Me: (I decide I've left my 'fake friend' hang to long, so I say into the phone again: "hey, hold on a second, ok?") Wow. I didnt realize that!
EN: Yeaaaahh, AAAAAND they are going to start FINEING people that dont put in their code, and...( paused for effect) start SENDING PEOPLE TO JAIL.
Me: (At this point the very shock of her overexaggeration of penalties for gate-miss-use drove me to slam my phone shut): OH! MY! Weeeelllll....I......thank you, so much, for letting me know! ( in my most cheerful telephone voice)
( At this point I get past Evil Neighbor and start heading up stairs, out of danger...but Evil Neighbor...is not through...she begins to elaborate on her threat)
EN: Yeah, and I think they are going to put up fliers really soon about this, so you really need to start following the rules.....
Ok, so that's pretty much the end of the story, the rest is pretty much as you could imagine: Me finally getting away, and going into my apartment and screaming....
So lets recap:
For ONE THING: How is it even POSSIBLE that after all of the honking at early hours ( she's awakened Katie and I several times when she honks at her dog while sitting in her car watching it run around)...not to mention her evil dog barking at ALL HOURS.... and the endless loud conversations for all to hear....how is it that *I* am the one who end up getting reprommanded by *her* ?!?! How is this POSSIBLE? Where is the justice in that???
For ANOTHER THING: Can you believe, I got caught having roadrage? And then ( probably) got caught having a fake phone call....am I THAT lame? ( the answer is yes)
*sigh* luckily its a really good story...one that is actually much better when I do the accents and handmotions along with it...so the next time you see me at a party, remind me to tell it to you again ;-)
October 18, 2005
October 17, 2005
| The Heavenly Man: The Remarkable True Story of Chinese Christian Brother Yunby Paul Hattaway, The Cross and the Switchblade By David Wilkerson, Tramp for the Lord By Corrie Ten Boom and God's Smugglers By Brother Andrew I lump all of these books together, not because they are anything alike...but they did all impact my life in a huge way when I read them...scattered througout my teen years and then into my university years...these books seemed to come to me at just the right time, changing my view of life, rekindling my heart to pray...especially pray for the Lost and for the missionaries that struggle to reach them...I've read each of these books at least twice-and I feel sure they will continue to speak to me afresh in the future. |
Well, I've already listed waaay more than the five books requested...so I shall stop for now. Hopefully this list either reminds you of books that have changed you, and maybe even given you some suggestions for books to read ( or reread in the future)