This weekend has been fairly interesting. I wouldnt say its been very productive, in the sense that I havent gotten to cross anything off my ever growing to-do lists. But, at the same time, I've been trying dreadfully hard to learn a lesson.
The lesson that a very good God is holding my life in His hand.
For instance, I love my friends. I love Brett more. But, I still love my friends and when I realized that we were getting married very very soon...it made me sad to realize that many of my favorite people would not get to share the day with us.
But, as of this weekend I will have at least four of my very dear friends from New Zealand at our wedding...and as of today I am now praying very hard that Thida will be able to make it too. ( she's given me a glimmer of hope, so I am going to take it and pray/run with it)....honestly, this is more than I would have dared to hope.
So, all of the issues that I am taking to God at the moment...things like...
"Is Brett's brother Tim and his family going to be able to come to the wedding?"
"Where in the WORLD are we going to have a reception for 300 people?" , "How will I find Bridesmaids dresses ( in red) for five girls, that they can afford?" "I need a dress too!"" I want the song from Master and Commander played at my wedding...where am I going to get a celloist and a violinist?"
These problems...all of which are constantly rummaging around in my head at all times...I am trying to grasp the fact ( and, yes, its a fact) that they are ALL being taken care of...and if they arent being taken care of-then they aren't that important....Instead, I am trying to pray for the things that are important...I'm trying to focus on the people that are important, the relationships, the memories...
I am absolutely treasuring my time with my family-so the fact that I didnt find a wedding dress yesterday but instead laughed extremely hard with my mom and my sister-I am totally counting Saturday a success.
I am absolutely treasuring my time at my church, and with the dear Family that I have there ( I'm also trying to figure out how to get sermons from my church onto a podcast...heheh)
I am absolutely treasuring my friends that I have had such a blast with over the last two years....
And then there is the other thing that I am doing....thinking of the future....oh, that the Lord would prepare the way, for if He does not go with us...than what are we?