August 30, 2009

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

Brett has been gone a month. Oh, and then also 8 months on top of that. So you could say I'm use to deployment. And I guess in some ways I am. But in other ways you wake up every day and its like starting over....and maybe that's the hardest part. The hardest part is having to make a Decision to make today a good day. All. Over. Again.

And lets be honest sometimes it not an easy Decision to make. Sometimes you haven't gotten to talk to your husband, or maybe something happens that rocks your boat and you realize that "Hey, they're fighting a WAR over there, and its not safe!"...or maybe its just something else that happens, but that something else is multiplied into badness because you don't have your Best Friend to tell about it to...but whatever it might be, the Decision is still the same. The excuses will always be there ( whether you're in the army or whether you'll never have to deal with a spouse separation. ever.) I know for a fact that every single season of my life, there are ALWAYS excuses to go a different route when the Decision time comes....

In the past month I've had a new added element to my life, since the Battalion that Brett was with before we went to Kansas deployed, I now have many girl friends going down a similar road and they too are having to wake up every morning without their loved ones and I know they've learned all about the Decision for themselves. And so tonight I'd like to tell you about the girls who, even though I've been doing this for many months now, have totally inspired me. They have taught me a little bit more about the Savior that gets us through...

First of all, you need to go read this blog right now ( I'll wait right here while you do it)...

Karissa just started blogging a few months ago...

So did you go? Did you read it?

Yeah, I know. I was encouraged too! Karissa has been making the Decision in a big fat way. And its incredible to see in real life too. She's not just blogging nice positive stuff-she's actually going out and living it too. For instance this last week was particularly awful and I watched Karissa face it all with the same obvious sadness as everyone else, but she also was digging into the Word of God and the difference was she was not wallowing in the sadness or letting the fear take her captive ( something I was definitely tempted to do at times!)....she totally turned to God to pull her out....

And He did.


I also have another friend who has started taking her Quiet Times super seriously. I'm not really sure if she did before this deployment, or even what started it exactly ( we haven't talked about it). But whatever the case is, I've noticed a new element in her life. An element of seeking God when it comes to the difficulties and the unanswerable stuff...and I've seen her un-pry her fingers from the death grip that we all seem to have on our own lives ( are ALL women control freaks?! hahaha! I know I am!)-she's been taking all those details of life and turning them over to God to answer....

And He has.


And I guess you could say that I started this post to talk about these girls and what they have taught me, and ultimately the lesson they've taught me, though they probably don't realize it...is I have seen the Lord. I have seen Him!! I have seen Him in undoubtable ways in the lives of these friends of mine. I have a greater understand of His Power, and His amazing capabilities for Faithfulness.


If you are seeking God in your life, never doubt that it is not visible to those around you, and take it from me- the Decision you are making to Seek Him and to Follow Him, your Decision may very well be making it easier for those watching you to make that Decision for themselves.

I am truly blessed to be surrounded by so many wonderful girls who teach me about my Lord every single day! May tomorrow's Decision be a no-brainer!

1 comment:

# 47 said...

Thanks Abigail. It's funny how all the little lessons that we seem to learn from different quarters are actually just part of the one big lesson to know, and love, and trust God. Thanks for posting about your wrestlings with the Decision here... it sure encourages me!