So, I was sitting here in the coffee shop ( this is one of the ones I applied at) and I heard the Boss Man and his employee talking about the new girl he had hired. How she was so great and had this great dynamic smile. Boo. Someone else has a better smile than me.
That's what it boils down to.
February 27, 2009
My darndest.
I woke and cried.
I know, right? How pitiful can you get?!?! But, I think I'm allowed at least one ( ok, two) such days in a week! For one thing I woke up with a headache. Which, you know, isn't suppose to happen because of the doctors magical drugs!!! I also woke up with the knowledge that I had NOTHING to do today. nothing.
My calendar was completely empty, which is something that has not happened ( except when I voluntarily wanted it to) since I moved back to Washington...and yet this week its happened SEVERAL times. This is beyond depressing and made me want a job more than anything, and it made me feel sorry for myself too. Everyone else has somebody. My somebody is in Afghanistan.
Yeah, yeah, wah wah waaaaah!
I just feel like I've been slapped upside the head a couple of times, though. I mean, if I look closely at what I have been doing it. I could definitely have put more time and effort into bible studies....and I'm sure I could have written some more letters...and maybe I could have volunteered somewhere?! I mean, I'm pretty sure this is all my fault. Its just sometimes you just wish life was easier. That you didn't have to Work So Hard to make things happen. Work So Hard to be happy.
So, today, since I already knew I was in a "bad way" I decided to NOT watch Alias. ( which is what I really wanted to do)...instead, I went to wal-mart and researched cakes for Amy's Babyshower, and I read The Shack and I took a nap, and now I'm sitting in Forza's coffee shop watching customers trickle in every once in a while.
And now I'm going to prepare my bible study for Sunday night.
I know, right? How pitiful can you get?!?! But, I think I'm allowed at least one ( ok, two) such days in a week! For one thing I woke up with a headache. Which, you know, isn't suppose to happen because of the doctors magical drugs!!! I also woke up with the knowledge that I had NOTHING to do today. nothing.
My calendar was completely empty, which is something that has not happened ( except when I voluntarily wanted it to) since I moved back to Washington...and yet this week its happened SEVERAL times. This is beyond depressing and made me want a job more than anything, and it made me feel sorry for myself too. Everyone else has somebody. My somebody is in Afghanistan.
Yeah, yeah, wah wah waaaaah!
I just feel like I've been slapped upside the head a couple of times, though. I mean, if I look closely at what I have been doing it. I could definitely have put more time and effort into bible studies....and I'm sure I could have written some more letters...and maybe I could have volunteered somewhere?! I mean, I'm pretty sure this is all my fault. Its just sometimes you just wish life was easier. That you didn't have to Work So Hard to make things happen. Work So Hard to be happy.
So, today, since I already knew I was in a "bad way" I decided to NOT watch Alias. ( which is what I really wanted to do)...instead, I went to wal-mart and researched cakes for Amy's Babyshower, and I read The Shack and I took a nap, and now I'm sitting in Forza's coffee shop watching customers trickle in every once in a while.
And now I'm going to prepare my bible study for Sunday night.
February 26, 2009
So far today...
Today:
I went with Amy to look at her baby ( via Ultra sound..obviously. What did you think?!?)
And while there is no way to tell, at this point, if he's going to be a normal human baby boy or a mighty morphin power ranger....I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that all's well inside of Amy's tummy. And come April I'm going to have a new baby to hold and spoil. Excellent. It also sorta kinda made me want to have a baby. But if you repeat that, I will deny it tomorrow.
Today I also ate chinese food that may or may not be playing tricks on my stomach right now. ugg.
Today I got my nails painted dark blue in preparation for the Rock Star party I'm going to on Saturday night....I'm pretty sure dark blue is a patented color of rockstar nails.
Today I felt less tired than yesterday, but still very tired. Meaning that while taking HALF the "prevention of migraines" medicine was better than the WHOLE ( which left me feeling drugged for the entirety of yesterday)...I'd say we're still not at 100%.
Today I paid off my credit card bill. Which is terribly satisfying because I've starting putting EVERYTHING that I buy in a month on the credit card, which gives me that delightful satisfaction of knowing exactly how much money I've spent in a given month. This month...less than last month. Even though this month included a plane ticket to New York. Good job, Abigail! ;-)
I went with Amy to look at her baby ( via Ultra sound..obviously. What did you think?!?)
And while there is no way to tell, at this point, if he's going to be a normal human baby boy or a mighty morphin power ranger....I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that all's well inside of Amy's tummy. And come April I'm going to have a new baby to hold and spoil. Excellent. It also sorta kinda made me want to have a baby. But if you repeat that, I will deny it tomorrow.
Today I also ate chinese food that may or may not be playing tricks on my stomach right now. ugg.
Today I got my nails painted dark blue in preparation for the Rock Star party I'm going to on Saturday night....I'm pretty sure dark blue is a patented color of rockstar nails.
Today I felt less tired than yesterday, but still very tired. Meaning that while taking HALF the "prevention of migraines" medicine was better than the WHOLE ( which left me feeling drugged for the entirety of yesterday)...I'd say we're still not at 100%.
Today I paid off my credit card bill. Which is terribly satisfying because I've starting putting EVERYTHING that I buy in a month on the credit card, which gives me that delightful satisfaction of knowing exactly how much money I've spent in a given month. This month...less than last month. Even though this month included a plane ticket to New York. Good job, Abigail! ;-)
Alias: a relationship story
So, for the past two months I've been watching Alias. I lie. For the past month I've been watching Alias. I mean, I wish I could say its been two months because then the fact that I'm on season FOUR ( and towards the end of it, I might add) wouldn't seem so terribly wrong and then all of you would actually believe that I do things during the day and, infact, don't sit around watching TV. ( I really do usually only watch Alias in bed before I go to sleep.....it just takes a long time to go to sleep. ;-)
Alias is one of those shows that I watched in high school. Or the end of high school. And then I moved to New Zealand and my mom would actually TAPE the shows for me and send them to me in the mail on VHS tapes. *pause to let that sink in*
At the time this did not seem particularly lame, but now looking back I cannot IMAGINE how sad I must have been that I loved TV shows SO MUCH that I couldn't bare to wait from them to come out on DVD....OooOoOooh!! That's right! This was before TV shows came out on DVD!!!! Whew! I'm not as lame as I thought ( but still pretty lame, lets not lie...) I'm just really OLD! Anyway, back to the story....so my mom would send me Alias on VHS and I pretty much watched all of season two that way....waiting patiently for my mom to send me recordings of prime time television- which I would then take my VHS tape up to my friend Lydia's flat and I'd watch my shows, fastforwarding the commercials ( but sometimes...when I was really homesick for the US, I'd watch the commercials just to remind me of what Coke looked like in the states. *sigh*) Annnyway, then my mom sent me the final tape, the tape that had the FINALE of season two on it...and I was SO excited!!!! I remember how ran up the hill to the flat ( probably huffing and puffing...because how can we forget the 30 pounds I gained those first years in college?!?! MAN!!! Who can resist New Zealand food, right?!?)
SO! I finally get to the flat and I'm watching Alias...and BOY! Its SOO good, and I'm on the edge of my seat! And the big cliff hanger is coming...and....and.....the tape cuts off!!! I then screamed so loud that Sunshine heard me downstairs and had to come up and check to make sure I was alive.
It was at this point that I lost interest in Alias. Because, lets be honest...once the sting of the loss of the last two minutes of Season two wore off, I was able to LET GO...and move forward with my life.....and it wasn't until recently that I even thought about Sydney and Vaughn or Marshall ( the BEST character. by far) at all!
But, there is nothing like having ones husband leave for 12 months to leave a giant hole in your schedule and thus force you to return to old friends....so I picked up this old dusty relationship with the help of my friend Bethany and her 5 seasons on DVD. ( she's so young, she probably doesn't remember a life without TV shows on DVD......she has NO IDEA how HARD it was back in the olden days!)....And so I began at the beginning and I relived the joys of season one when Sydney is all angsty and whiny about having to LIE to her friends and co-workers about her true identity ( geez, girl! get over it!) and yet season one is really awesome because there are lots more "dress up sequences" which, to be honest, make the show great....who really CARES about some made-up organization that needs to be taken down when you've got cute outfits and awesome wigs to look at and critic?!? Of course, by now I'm hooked...and I remembered why I loved Alias in the first place and so I was off and running into season two-which was highly anticipated because that's the season of Sydney+Vaughn= most inprobable makeout scene winners of the world, happens...
Seriously. Its worth the whole season. Its seriously unbelievably funny.
But, then I moved on to season three...but maybe I moved on too quickly? And I was starting to be annoyed by all the spying and all the sydney whining and all the girl fights. BUT, as luck would have it, I took a trip to NY for the weekend, giving Alias and I much needed "space" to work out our differences and I came back with a more open mind and the commitment to overlook the shortfalls and make season three work. And, my hardwork paid off...with the death of the MOST ANNOYING Character EVER.
Which brings us to Season four. Which, so far, is my favorite. Its pretty much a repeat of season one..( and if you've seen season four you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about...its almost laughable how similar it is!!!) exept, unlike season 1, the show has worked out its kinks and figured out what works. ( aka. MORE MARSHALL...the best character ever.) Soooooo, friends and family....when you are all tucked up in your warm beds and you think about me...and you wonder what I'm doing to pass the cold, lonely nights without my husband....wonder no longer.
Or at least for the next 4-7 days ( which is how long I'm guessing it will take me to finish season four and complete season five)....after which I suppose all have to find a new quasi-relationship show to watch.
Alias is one of those shows that I watched in high school. Or the end of high school. And then I moved to New Zealand and my mom would actually TAPE the shows for me and send them to me in the mail on VHS tapes. *pause to let that sink in*
At the time this did not seem particularly lame, but now looking back I cannot IMAGINE how sad I must have been that I loved TV shows SO MUCH that I couldn't bare to wait from them to come out on DVD....OooOoOooh!! That's right! This was before TV shows came out on DVD!!!! Whew! I'm not as lame as I thought ( but still pretty lame, lets not lie...) I'm just really OLD! Anyway, back to the story....so my mom would send me Alias on VHS and I pretty much watched all of season two that way....waiting patiently for my mom to send me recordings of prime time television- which I would then take my VHS tape up to my friend Lydia's flat and I'd watch my shows, fastforwarding the commercials ( but sometimes...when I was really homesick for the US, I'd watch the commercials just to remind me of what Coke looked like in the states. *sigh*) Annnyway, then my mom sent me the final tape, the tape that had the FINALE of season two on it...and I was SO excited!!!! I remember how ran up the hill to the flat ( probably huffing and puffing...because how can we forget the 30 pounds I gained those first years in college?!?! MAN!!! Who can resist New Zealand food, right?!?)
SO! I finally get to the flat and I'm watching Alias...and BOY! Its SOO good, and I'm on the edge of my seat! And the big cliff hanger is coming...and....and.....the tape cuts off!!! I then screamed so loud that Sunshine heard me downstairs and had to come up and check to make sure I was alive.
It was at this point that I lost interest in Alias. Because, lets be honest...once the sting of the loss of the last two minutes of Season two wore off, I was able to LET GO...and move forward with my life.....and it wasn't until recently that I even thought about Sydney and Vaughn or Marshall ( the BEST character. by far) at all!
But, there is nothing like having ones husband leave for 12 months to leave a giant hole in your schedule and thus force you to return to old friends....so I picked up this old dusty relationship with the help of my friend Bethany and her 5 seasons on DVD. ( she's so young, she probably doesn't remember a life without TV shows on DVD......she has NO IDEA how HARD it was back in the olden days!)....And so I began at the beginning and I relived the joys of season one when Sydney is all angsty and whiny about having to LIE to her friends and co-workers about her true identity ( geez, girl! get over it!) and yet season one is really awesome because there are lots more "dress up sequences" which, to be honest, make the show great....who really CARES about some made-up organization that needs to be taken down when you've got cute outfits and awesome wigs to look at and critic?!? Of course, by now I'm hooked...and I remembered why I loved Alias in the first place and so I was off and running into season two-which was highly anticipated because that's the season of Sydney+Vaughn= most inprobable makeout scene winners of the world, happens...
Seriously. Its worth the whole season. Its seriously unbelievably funny.
But, then I moved on to season three...but maybe I moved on too quickly? And I was starting to be annoyed by all the spying and all the sydney whining and all the girl fights. BUT, as luck would have it, I took a trip to NY for the weekend, giving Alias and I much needed "space" to work out our differences and I came back with a more open mind and the commitment to overlook the shortfalls and make season three work. And, my hardwork paid off...with the death of the MOST ANNOYING Character EVER.
Which brings us to Season four. Which, so far, is my favorite. Its pretty much a repeat of season one..( and if you've seen season four you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about...its almost laughable how similar it is!!!) exept, unlike season 1, the show has worked out its kinks and figured out what works. ( aka. MORE MARSHALL...the best character ever.) Soooooo, friends and family....when you are all tucked up in your warm beds and you think about me...and you wonder what I'm doing to pass the cold, lonely nights without my husband....wonder no longer.
Or at least for the next 4-7 days ( which is how long I'm guessing it will take me to finish season four and complete season five)....after which I suppose all have to find a new quasi-relationship show to watch.
February 25, 2009
Another shot at life.
So, yesterday morning I woke up with another full blown migraine that actually made me sick to my stomach...and hopeless. Having a migraine for ONE day is bad...but spreading headaches out over a two week period will make a person go insane. So off I went to the doctor....
Which, I gotta say, is always a toss up. You really never know what you're gonna get....buuut, when you're desperate, you're desperate, ya know? So finally after sitting, waiting, pleading I finally saw some nameless PA ( I probably was told his name but I didn't really pay attention) who had long scraggly hair...on the sides. ( zero hair on top) and weird glasses from 1982. Yet, this nameless PA gave me about 10 minutes of attention where I almost cried because I so wanted relief and then he told me that the reason my headache was continuing for so long was because the medicine I was given last time wasnt working ( you think?) and that it wasn't enough to break the "pain cycle"...therefore the ongoing migraines. Made sense.
Thus a shot in the rear end. Nothing like having to pull your pants down half way to make a person feel better...but honestly, I would have done ANYTHING at that point!
The other highlight of the day was receiving another medication that is usually used for depression but, when given in smaller doses at bedtime can actually PREVENT migraines from happening! GLORY BE! The PA reminded me, like three times, that I wasn't actually "crazy" or anything.....but I honestly could care less....I mean, as far as I was concerned I was depressed...and me not getting migraines will make me the OPPOSITE of depressed!
So now it is time for us to all cross our fingers and hope that have no more headaches to report this week...or next...or ever ( wouldn't that be GRAND?!)
Which, I gotta say, is always a toss up. You really never know what you're gonna get....buuut, when you're desperate, you're desperate, ya know? So finally after sitting, waiting, pleading I finally saw some nameless PA ( I probably was told his name but I didn't really pay attention) who had long scraggly hair...on the sides. ( zero hair on top) and weird glasses from 1982. Yet, this nameless PA gave me about 10 minutes of attention where I almost cried because I so wanted relief and then he told me that the reason my headache was continuing for so long was because the medicine I was given last time wasnt working ( you think?) and that it wasn't enough to break the "pain cycle"...therefore the ongoing migraines. Made sense.
Thus a shot in the rear end. Nothing like having to pull your pants down half way to make a person feel better...but honestly, I would have done ANYTHING at that point!
The other highlight of the day was receiving another medication that is usually used for depression but, when given in smaller doses at bedtime can actually PREVENT migraines from happening! GLORY BE! The PA reminded me, like three times, that I wasn't actually "crazy" or anything.....but I honestly could care less....I mean, as far as I was concerned I was depressed...and me not getting migraines will make me the OPPOSITE of depressed!
So now it is time for us to all cross our fingers and hope that have no more headaches to report this week...or next...or ever ( wouldn't that be GRAND?!)
February 23, 2009
Lucky thirteen...
I slept for thirteen hours last night. I did this on purpose because I was sick and tired of this horrible headache that I've had off and on for two weeks. I decided sleep would surely cure said headache.
I suppose it did. If by cure you mean not really that bad today. *sigh* I really should go through the motions of getting a doctors appointment. But I know they won't tell me anything of value...depressing.
In other news, today I ate terrible Thai food ( as a rule any restaurant that says they serve Chinese food and Thai food, probably serve bad versions of both...), but I just HAD to try it since its literally a block away from my house and wouldn't it have been AWESOME if I'd had good thai food that close to home?!? Sadly, one can only dream....
Also, the fortune cookie that came with my Thai food ( that should have been my warning)...didnt have a fortune in it. That's right. It was an empty cookie.
Not sure if that's a good sign or not.
I did, however, have SOME luck today...thanks to my thrifty friend who continually makes me feel like a bad house wife because I buy my yogurt at the full price ( $.50...baaaaad Abigail, BAD!) who told me about the RedBox movie deal that allowed me to rent a movie for FREE on mondays! Oh yes, she might make me feel guilty about some things...but I'll forgive her because its not really her fault, and I got to watch this semi-good move, How to Lose Friends and Alienate People for free! YAY!
I also ate icecream and chocolate cookies for dinner. I did this because I was celebrating the fact that my high cholesterol, really IS hereditary ( finally another family member goes to the doctor! Its about time! I can't be the ONLY one who's sickly! hehehe)....and not my fault at all. Nothing like passing the blame and eating dessert for dinner!
I suppose it did. If by cure you mean not really that bad today. *sigh* I really should go through the motions of getting a doctors appointment. But I know they won't tell me anything of value...depressing.
In other news, today I ate terrible Thai food ( as a rule any restaurant that says they serve Chinese food and Thai food, probably serve bad versions of both...), but I just HAD to try it since its literally a block away from my house and wouldn't it have been AWESOME if I'd had good thai food that close to home?!? Sadly, one can only dream....
Also, the fortune cookie that came with my Thai food ( that should have been my warning)...didnt have a fortune in it. That's right. It was an empty cookie.
Not sure if that's a good sign or not.
I did, however, have SOME luck today...thanks to my thrifty friend who continually makes me feel like a bad house wife because I buy my yogurt at the full price ( $.50...baaaaad Abigail, BAD!) who told me about the RedBox movie deal that allowed me to rent a movie for FREE on mondays! Oh yes, she might make me feel guilty about some things...but I'll forgive her because its not really her fault, and I got to watch this semi-good move, How to Lose Friends and Alienate People for free! YAY!
I also ate icecream and chocolate cookies for dinner. I did this because I was celebrating the fact that my high cholesterol, really IS hereditary ( finally another family member goes to the doctor! Its about time! I can't be the ONLY one who's sickly! hehehe)....and not my fault at all. Nothing like passing the blame and eating dessert for dinner!
February 21, 2009
Excuse me while I'm mushy.
"You're ruining me
with secrets and gestures and looks
With sonnets and second-hand books
Playing the chords in me
nobody knew how to play...
Your eyes are full of the future of us." ( not my words, but Brooke Fraser)
I miss Him.
with secrets and gestures and looks
With sonnets and second-hand books
Playing the chords in me
nobody knew how to play...
Your eyes are full of the future of us." ( not my words, but Brooke Fraser)
I miss Him.
February 20, 2009
Magnetic
Today I endured the serious road-rage from some dude in a shiny SUV to get to Hello Cupcake so Cindy and I could indulge in a sugar high. *sigh* Quite the tradeoff...but geez, people can be rude!
In other news, I'm suppose to be cleaning my house, but instead I'm watching Alias season 3. Hard. to. stop.
This week just flew by...probably since Monday and Tuesday went by in a fog of the past weekend wrap up. But, it was ultimately a productive week! I have this weird feeling of trepidation about staying busy...its like every week goes by and I'm always surprisingly busy, but at the end of each week I have a minor freak out along the lines of, "what if next week isnt busy?! How will I justify my existence then?!!"
Buuuut, I'm trying to learn how to be more patient and trust. One day I'll figure out that my life isn't mine.
I just finished up making the invites for Amy's baby shower. I'm semi-satisfied with them....I think my favorite part is that they're magnets. I love invites that are also magnets...I always put invites on the fridge anyway, so this way you put out the middleman magnet. ;-)
In other news, I'm suppose to be cleaning my house, but instead I'm watching Alias season 3. Hard. to. stop.
This week just flew by...probably since Monday and Tuesday went by in a fog of the past weekend wrap up. But, it was ultimately a productive week! I have this weird feeling of trepidation about staying busy...its like every week goes by and I'm always surprisingly busy, but at the end of each week I have a minor freak out along the lines of, "what if next week isnt busy?! How will I justify my existence then?!!"
Buuuut, I'm trying to learn how to be more patient and trust. One day I'll figure out that my life isn't mine.
I just finished up making the invites for Amy's baby shower. I'm semi-satisfied with them....I think my favorite part is that they're magnets. I love invites that are also magnets...I always put invites on the fridge anyway, so this way you put out the middleman magnet. ;-)
February 18, 2009
What its all about ( apparently).
So, I'm once again back in the Northwest...still without a job, and less and less hopes that I'm going to actually get one. But, then again...both of these verses presented themselves today:
The first one is my memory verse this week ( which is pretty much cheating since I think I've already had it memorized for years).
Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you. Matt 6:33
And then in my quiet time tonight I came to this verse which says almost the same thing ( but, hey, sometimes we need things repeated for us!), "But seek His kingdom and these things will be added to you." Luke 12:31
And thus, today I spent from 8:30am-6:30pm "baby-sitting" a friend who got her wisdom teeth taken out....I honestly think I might be ok with not having a job if it means this is what I get to do instead. I'm perfectly happy as long as I feel a tad bit useful at the same time....
Of course, it should be noted that I have a wonderful husband who makes it possible for me to do nice things for other people without having to ask for money in return...he's really the greatest most generous person in the world!
In other news I talked to Anna, Amy B, Amy K and Chuck on the phone today...thank goodness my cell phone plane restarted or I'd be in trouble! Those minutes go by fast!!!
The first one is my memory verse this week ( which is pretty much cheating since I think I've already had it memorized for years).
Seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you. Matt 6:33
And then in my quiet time tonight I came to this verse which says almost the same thing ( but, hey, sometimes we need things repeated for us!), "But seek His kingdom and these things will be added to you." Luke 12:31
And thus, today I spent from 8:30am-6:30pm "baby-sitting" a friend who got her wisdom teeth taken out....I honestly think I might be ok with not having a job if it means this is what I get to do instead. I'm perfectly happy as long as I feel a tad bit useful at the same time....
Of course, it should be noted that I have a wonderful husband who makes it possible for me to do nice things for other people without having to ask for money in return...he's really the greatest most generous person in the world!
In other news I talked to Anna, Amy B, Amy K and Chuck on the phone today...thank goodness my cell phone plane restarted or I'd be in trouble! Those minutes go by fast!!!
What Recovery looks like
-Talking to Brett on the phone ( half way through the conversation I realized I was smiling for no reason...)
-Laying in a warm bed ( something I hadn't done in four days) for a good hour after waking up.
-Eating lunch with Katie without having to leave my house.
-Preparing for my Tuesday night Bible Study talk ( the first one I've had to do here at Fort Lewis. ekk!)
-Watching four episodes of Alias.
-Eating "Mac-a-Bees" ( the name Brett came up for Macaroni and Cheese mixed with black beans.)
-Having a really low-key, yet awesome Bible study with Lindsay and Tina. ( how quickly I've fallen in love with these girls!)
-Chatting with my sister-in-law on the phone.
I feel so much better, and my headache seems to be better, so we'll see! Tomorrow I'm playing nurse for a friend who's getting her wisdom teeth removed. I'm praying there's no blood...I'm NOT good with blood.
-Laying in a warm bed ( something I hadn't done in four days) for a good hour after waking up.
-Eating lunch with Katie without having to leave my house.
-Preparing for my Tuesday night Bible Study talk ( the first one I've had to do here at Fort Lewis. ekk!)
-Watching four episodes of Alias.
-Eating "Mac-a-Bees" ( the name Brett came up for Macaroni and Cheese mixed with black beans.)
-Having a really low-key, yet awesome Bible study with Lindsay and Tina. ( how quickly I've fallen in love with these girls!)
-Chatting with my sister-in-law on the phone.
I feel so much better, and my headache seems to be better, so we'll see! Tomorrow I'm playing nurse for a friend who's getting her wisdom teeth removed. I'm praying there's no blood...I'm NOT good with blood.
February 17, 2009
I'm back....
My weekend was pretty crazy....and started off strong with a migraine on the plane on the way to New York, a migraine so intense that it started with actual blurred vision before the pain actually even started...it was as if I had looked into a light for a long time and couldn't get my eyes to refocus! It was scary, and also awful since I was a good thirty thousand feet up in the air, facing a weekend of intense Navigator styleness....
But, thanks to all those who prayed for me! I do believe those prayers were answered because I was able to do everything I needed to do and not throw up on anyone or be too overly cranky! So I'd say it was a success even if I didn't feel 100% all weekend!
I am now needing a weekend to recover from my weekend! But, sadly this will not get to happen....things are starting to look busy once again-so before everyone starts to realize I'm home I'm going to spend some quality time with my eyes closed. ;-)
But, thanks to all those who prayed for me! I do believe those prayers were answered because I was able to do everything I needed to do and not throw up on anyone or be too overly cranky! So I'd say it was a success even if I didn't feel 100% all weekend!
I am now needing a weekend to recover from my weekend! But, sadly this will not get to happen....things are starting to look busy once again-so before everyone starts to realize I'm home I'm going to spend some quality time with my eyes closed. ;-)
February 13, 2009
2 years, 1 month....
2 years ago and one month to the day...I went to the Navigators Military Conference outside of Albany, New York. I was really impressed and freaked out all at the same time... all of a sudden it started to become very real to me what a life married to Brett would look like and that was scary...it was scary because it was all so new, it was not the ministry I had envisioned for myself, and it was not the life I had envisioned for myself...I started to wonder if I had it all wrong! But, then after going home and freaking Brett out by telling him what I was thinking, Brett and I came to a turning point in our relationship. I had to make the decision whether I could follow Brett, whether that meant in the army, or as part of the navigators or if it meant going off to Timbuktu...and it started to become very clear that that was not only exactly what I wanted to do, it was exactly what I was suppose to do.
fast forward and we're here....
Tomorrow I'm leaving for Albany, New York to attend the annual Navigators Military Conference yet again.....
how much has changed!
I just found my journal from that trip back in early 2007 and I had to smile at the notes I took at the different sessions. So many of the concepts and thoughts were no longer foreign or new to me ( good ol' navigators! Gotta love those illustrations!), and the relationship of Yesterday is the marriage of Today....
so much has changed!
That ministry that I never thought I could be a part of, is the ministry that I moved back to Washington for, and that life that I never thought I could live is the very life I have. I look back at my journals in awe that all those times that I prayed over and over again that God would "direct my path"...He did! And as much as I have changed....
The Lord, He has not changed at all!
fast forward and we're here....
Tomorrow I'm leaving for Albany, New York to attend the annual Navigators Military Conference yet again.....
how much has changed!
I just found my journal from that trip back in early 2007 and I had to smile at the notes I took at the different sessions. So many of the concepts and thoughts were no longer foreign or new to me ( good ol' navigators! Gotta love those illustrations!), and the relationship of Yesterday is the marriage of Today....
so much has changed!
That ministry that I never thought I could be a part of, is the ministry that I moved back to Washington for, and that life that I never thought I could live is the very life I have. I look back at my journals in awe that all those times that I prayed over and over again that God would "direct my path"...He did! And as much as I have changed....
The Lord, He has not changed at all!
February 11, 2009
prolonging the inevitable.
My bed is so nice and toast and warm right now! And I'm looking out of my window at blue sky and snow...and honestly, I just want to stay in bed all day and stare outside! But, since I already did that whole "stay in bed all day" thing once this week I'll just blog and get up after that.
Yesterday, at around 5:30 I went into Coffee Shop #1 to re-turn in my resume....and wouldn't you know it? But Boss Man was THERE!! It was truly a miracle since he was literally there for five minutes before leaving again! But, I was able to directly hand him my resume and Awesome Letter and talk to him for a few minutes. I don't know how my first impression was, but I do feel strongly that if God can make all these coincidences happen He can get me a job too! ( if He wants!) It looks like Boss Man is not even sure if he is going to hire anyone in the next little while, but at least I put myself into his mind as an option! We'll see!!
I think that God is teaching me about what 'work' is and what I should or shouldn't be doing to feel like I'm being an active member of society. Its a hard lesson!
Oddly enough, as Brett and I wait to see what his next step of fate in the army will be, I also feel this sense of calm that God knows better than we do about what that step should be, I just pray that He gives us hearts to accept whatever it is joyfully! ( this is already hard, since the idea of moving again in 8 months is NOT a joyful one!)...But, I am actually a little bit ( lets not get too carried away!) excited about the unknown adventures and new places to live that are in our future! I'd just like Brett to be around to enjoy them with me a little more ;-)
Yesterday, at around 5:30 I went into Coffee Shop #1 to re-turn in my resume....and wouldn't you know it? But Boss Man was THERE!! It was truly a miracle since he was literally there for five minutes before leaving again! But, I was able to directly hand him my resume and Awesome Letter and talk to him for a few minutes. I don't know how my first impression was, but I do feel strongly that if God can make all these coincidences happen He can get me a job too! ( if He wants!) It looks like Boss Man is not even sure if he is going to hire anyone in the next little while, but at least I put myself into his mind as an option! We'll see!!
I think that God is teaching me about what 'work' is and what I should or shouldn't be doing to feel like I'm being an active member of society. Its a hard lesson!
Oddly enough, as Brett and I wait to see what his next step of fate in the army will be, I also feel this sense of calm that God knows better than we do about what that step should be, I just pray that He gives us hearts to accept whatever it is joyfully! ( this is already hard, since the idea of moving again in 8 months is NOT a joyful one!)...But, I am actually a little bit ( lets not get too carried away!) excited about the unknown adventures and new places to live that are in our future! I'd just like Brett to be around to enjoy them with me a little more ;-)
February 10, 2009
Stolen.
So, remember how I said I needed to pray for my friends more?! Remember that? Well, apparently God thought that Monday would be a good day for me to spend all day with my eyes closed ( in prayer, I guess)...and I woke at 4am with a mother of a migraine. Awesome.
Thus a day of me laying in bed.
The only REAL problem with this scenario ( since let's not lie, I don't do that much on Mondays), is that the night before I heard through the grapevine that some friends were sitting in Coffee Shop #1 ( the first one that I left my application at)....and heard the boss-man looking over applications and lamenting that the girl he wanted to hire wouldnt call him back....sooooooOo being good friends and looking out for me, my friends asked him about ME and said he should hire ME because I'm wonderful and experienced and so on and so forth...so Boss-Man proceeds to look through his applications and can't find mine there at all!
SOME ONE STOLE IT! Or threw it away ( or the less dramatic reason: it got lost)!!!
Anyway, whatever the case, all day yesterday between my blurry sight and shooting pain I could only think about how my job prospects were slipping away because someone misplace my resume and I wasn't going to get it back in in time!
Of course, all of this WOULD happen after I'd gotten all calm and peaceful about NOT having a job. Nice. Fantastic timing per usual.
For what its worth, I'll be taking in ANOTHER resume and cover letter in this evening ( that's apparently when the boss man is usually in) in the hopes that I will have a second chance. I will also try and bear in mind that all of this is in God's hands....*sigh*
Other things going on in my life today:
1. Its snowing. Pretty hard.
2. I'm making cookies for Bible Study tonight.
3. We're doing a special talk on Purity this evening...should be interesting! But, we've been praying about this for over a month so I'm hoping it'll go well!
4. I'm starting to think about packing for my trip to New York this weekend. I'm thinking mittens are in order.
5. I'm putting my flannel sheets on my bed today. Its just that cold.
Thus a day of me laying in bed.
The only REAL problem with this scenario ( since let's not lie, I don't do that much on Mondays), is that the night before I heard through the grapevine that some friends were sitting in Coffee Shop #1 ( the first one that I left my application at)....and heard the boss-man looking over applications and lamenting that the girl he wanted to hire wouldnt call him back....sooooooOo being good friends and looking out for me, my friends asked him about ME and said he should hire ME because I'm wonderful and experienced and so on and so forth...so Boss-Man proceeds to look through his applications and can't find mine there at all!
SOME ONE STOLE IT! Or threw it away ( or the less dramatic reason: it got lost)!!!
Anyway, whatever the case, all day yesterday between my blurry sight and shooting pain I could only think about how my job prospects were slipping away because someone misplace my resume and I wasn't going to get it back in in time!
Of course, all of this WOULD happen after I'd gotten all calm and peaceful about NOT having a job. Nice. Fantastic timing per usual.
For what its worth, I'll be taking in ANOTHER resume and cover letter in this evening ( that's apparently when the boss man is usually in) in the hopes that I will have a second chance. I will also try and bear in mind that all of this is in God's hands....*sigh*
Other things going on in my life today:
1. Its snowing. Pretty hard.
2. I'm making cookies for Bible Study tonight.
3. We're doing a special talk on Purity this evening...should be interesting! But, we've been praying about this for over a month so I'm hoping it'll go well!
4. I'm starting to think about packing for my trip to New York this weekend. I'm thinking mittens are in order.
5. I'm putting my flannel sheets on my bed today. Its just that cold.
February 08, 2009
Fuzzy wuzzy, wasn't very fuzzy was he?
I'm just waking up from an afternoon nap. ahhhhh! I think I really needed it! I can usually tell when a MUST HAVE nap is coming on because a headache starts to creep into the back of my temples....
But, now I'm sitting on my couch with a quilt, and my Brett Bear Waterbottle, finishing but my bible study for tonight...
This weekend has been pretty eventful-not so much in my own life but in my intercessory life...meaning the people that I pray for the most just got bumped up a couple of notches and I'm struck once again for the need to spend time in prayer on a daily basis for those I care about.
But, since all of that is very vague and not very blog-interesting how about I give you a review of the two movies I saw this weekend? Sound good?
Marley and Me. Now, my bro-in-law gave Brett and I this book on CD for our drive from Washington to Kansas many moons ago and we loved it! We laughed, we cried ( seriously, we both did!) and it was definitely a great little book. The movie, I must admit was also good at capturing the way in which life can take us in directions that we didn't expect, and that some of the sacrifices we make, for family and for those we love, can make that different direction turn into the life we truly love and would not give up....all through the story of a family dog no less! I will say this, though...the book did a much better job of capturing Marley's admirable and sometimes truly humanizing acts of love...while the movie focused more on how crazy and out of control the dog could also be.
Watch the movie, bring some tissues....read the book and bring the whole BOX of tissues. Your choice.
On saturday I watched another movie based on a book, He's just not that into you. And while this movie had some very clever moments and made one laugh at the many lies that we often tell our friends just to make them feel better...over all this movie had waaaay too many cringe worthy scenes and focused on the sadder more terrible decisions of the Love and War of relationships then on the positive and more uplifting " exceptions" to the terrible "rule"....I spent the middle part of the movie trying to distract myself with checking my emails on my phone, it was that hard to watch! If you want to watch this movie I suggest renting it when it comes out on video and fastforwarding every scene with Scarlett Johanson ( who I just found out has the same birthday is me...but is a year younger. that's weird. I don't like her. She always plays cheating hussies in her films).
But, now I'm sitting on my couch with a quilt, and my Brett Bear Waterbottle, finishing but my bible study for tonight...
This weekend has been pretty eventful-not so much in my own life but in my intercessory life...meaning the people that I pray for the most just got bumped up a couple of notches and I'm struck once again for the need to spend time in prayer on a daily basis for those I care about.
But, since all of that is very vague and not very blog-interesting how about I give you a review of the two movies I saw this weekend? Sound good?
Marley and Me. Now, my bro-in-law gave Brett and I this book on CD for our drive from Washington to Kansas many moons ago and we loved it! We laughed, we cried ( seriously, we both did!) and it was definitely a great little book. The movie, I must admit was also good at capturing the way in which life can take us in directions that we didn't expect, and that some of the sacrifices we make, for family and for those we love, can make that different direction turn into the life we truly love and would not give up....all through the story of a family dog no less! I will say this, though...the book did a much better job of capturing Marley's admirable and sometimes truly humanizing acts of love...while the movie focused more on how crazy and out of control the dog could also be.
Watch the movie, bring some tissues....read the book and bring the whole BOX of tissues. Your choice.
On saturday I watched another movie based on a book, He's just not that into you. And while this movie had some very clever moments and made one laugh at the many lies that we often tell our friends just to make them feel better...over all this movie had waaaay too many cringe worthy scenes and focused on the sadder more terrible decisions of the Love and War of relationships then on the positive and more uplifting " exceptions" to the terrible "rule"....I spent the middle part of the movie trying to distract myself with checking my emails on my phone, it was that hard to watch! If you want to watch this movie I suggest renting it when it comes out on video and fastforwarding every scene with Scarlett Johanson ( who I just found out has the same birthday is me...but is a year younger. that's weird. I don't like her. She always plays cheating hussies in her films).
February 07, 2009
Ten things
I haven't done one of these in a while:
10 Things that make me happy:
1. My new camelbak water bottle. Although since buying it at 6pm this evening I've peed four times. Waaay more than normal.
2. My friend, Amy B. I hung out with her tonight and she made me laugh and she made me feel less weird. Mostly because she's weird too...but whatever.
3. My fireplace. Have I mentioned how it just TURNS ON when the room gets too cold ( and the thermostat is on)? How AWESOME!
4. Twizzler Pull and Peel. Cherry flavored. I like to peel them apart and then braid them. Oh. And then eat them.
5. Phone calls from phone numbers that only have six digits. Those are always from Brett.
6. The thought of sun. I'm pretty much obsessed with blue sky. I wake up, pull back my blinds and look at the sky. If its blue than it WILL be a good day.
7. The Fort Lewis movie theatre. $2 a new release movie and a stirring rendition of the Star Spangled Banner in Chipmunk voices to start the movie off...
8. Double Tall Soy Lattes. I had two today.
9. Planning Brett's R&R ( rest and relaxation...the "mid-tour break"...although its not going to be "mid")...even though I can't really plan it. I like to think about it. A Lot.
10. The Navigator Girls. I'm loving getting to know them and think of ways to make life better for them! It gets me up in the morning.
10 Things that make me happy:
1. My new camelbak water bottle. Although since buying it at 6pm this evening I've peed four times. Waaay more than normal.
2. My friend, Amy B. I hung out with her tonight and she made me laugh and she made me feel less weird. Mostly because she's weird too...but whatever.
3. My fireplace. Have I mentioned how it just TURNS ON when the room gets too cold ( and the thermostat is on)? How AWESOME!
4. Twizzler Pull and Peel. Cherry flavored. I like to peel them apart and then braid them. Oh. And then eat them.
5. Phone calls from phone numbers that only have six digits. Those are always from Brett.
6. The thought of sun. I'm pretty much obsessed with blue sky. I wake up, pull back my blinds and look at the sky. If its blue than it WILL be a good day.
7. The Fort Lewis movie theatre. $2 a new release movie and a stirring rendition of the Star Spangled Banner in Chipmunk voices to start the movie off...
8. Double Tall Soy Lattes. I had two today.
9. Planning Brett's R&R ( rest and relaxation...the "mid-tour break"...although its not going to be "mid")...even though I can't really plan it. I like to think about it. A Lot.
10. The Navigator Girls. I'm loving getting to know them and think of ways to make life better for them! It gets me up in the morning.
February 06, 2009
The best ever.
I just got off the phone with Brett...its after midnight and I really need to go to bed and get my beauty sleep for my second day of baby sitting for the week. But, before I go to bed a little bragging must be done:
Brett is the greatest writer ever and today I got a wonderful letter in the mail in a red envelope. I actually gasped when I saw it in the mail box. He's the only person that makes me gasp like that.
He wrote me a poem for our anniversary and he included the hardcopy in this letter....he uses the word "law-zee" in it...which I'm pretty sure is only used on the Andy Griffith Show....but yes, he was able to incorporate it into poetry. He's amazing. And I got to marry him.
Brett is the greatest writer ever and today I got a wonderful letter in the mail in a red envelope. I actually gasped when I saw it in the mail box. He's the only person that makes me gasp like that.
He wrote me a poem for our anniversary and he included the hardcopy in this letter....he uses the word "law-zee" in it...which I'm pretty sure is only used on the Andy Griffith Show....but yes, he was able to incorporate it into poetry. He's amazing. And I got to marry him.
February 04, 2009
And all the heavens declared... impromptu is good!
My goodness! Today was glorious! There are definitely times when life is just worth living ( isn't that good to hear?! heheh!)
Today I had my quiet time in bed and wrote Brett a letter on my new stationary that I'm loving....
I then had an impromptu lunch with Katie ( her work is seriously steps away from my front door....) which is really so delightful and reinforces the idea that I did, in fact, move into the right apartment. ;-)
My lunch collided with Amy arriving at my door and we then headed off for a walk down to a trail that overlooks Puget Sound. Glorious glorious day, people. Seriously, it was up to 60 degrees and the sun was shining and the wonders of God's creation ( particularly the mountains and the ocean) where a blaze with light. So Amy and I walked and talked until our legs almost feel off.
A note should now be made that we walked FIVE MILES and that Amy is PREGGERS and not just a little bit preggers she's up on six months pregnant. Seriously. She's a super hero.
I then rushed off to a lunch date with one of the girls from Bible Study who couldn't make it and so we just had to grab a coffee ( she is also a super hero because she's been working nights for the past few weeks and has yet to go completely insane...I honestly don't know how people do it!!).
And now I'm writing this, hoping Brett will call so that I can share this beautiful day with him....he was the only thing missing.
And then I was off to the Tacoma water front where I met up with Judy for dinner...now I've been looking forward to this for AGES, ever since she contacted me when I first moved to Washington the first time around.....Judy is one of those "puzzle pieces" of my own life and legacy since she went to college with the Parents and the Second Parents and it made me realize that the name of the conference that I'm going to next weekend which is called "Spiritual Generations" is actually played out in my own life! I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful legacy and it is an honor to try to live up to what has been laid as my foundation. And since Judy is one of my loyal blog readers I hope she knows how much FUN it was to meet her and chat and to know we have the greatest of All in common! :-)
Today I had my quiet time in bed and wrote Brett a letter on my new stationary that I'm loving....
I then had an impromptu lunch with Katie ( her work is seriously steps away from my front door....) which is really so delightful and reinforces the idea that I did, in fact, move into the right apartment. ;-)
My lunch collided with Amy arriving at my door and we then headed off for a walk down to a trail that overlooks Puget Sound. Glorious glorious day, people. Seriously, it was up to 60 degrees and the sun was shining and the wonders of God's creation ( particularly the mountains and the ocean) where a blaze with light. So Amy and I walked and talked until our legs almost feel off.
A note should now be made that we walked FIVE MILES and that Amy is PREGGERS and not just a little bit preggers she's up on six months pregnant. Seriously. She's a super hero.
I then rushed off to a lunch date with one of the girls from Bible Study who couldn't make it and so we just had to grab a coffee ( she is also a super hero because she's been working nights for the past few weeks and has yet to go completely insane...I honestly don't know how people do it!!).
And now I'm writing this, hoping Brett will call so that I can share this beautiful day with him....he was the only thing missing.
And then I was off to the Tacoma water front where I met up with Judy for dinner...now I've been looking forward to this for AGES, ever since she contacted me when I first moved to Washington the first time around.....Judy is one of those "puzzle pieces" of my own life and legacy since she went to college with the Parents and the Second Parents and it made me realize that the name of the conference that I'm going to next weekend which is called "Spiritual Generations" is actually played out in my own life! I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful legacy and it is an honor to try to live up to what has been laid as my foundation. And since Judy is one of my loyal blog readers I hope she knows how much FUN it was to meet her and chat and to know we have the greatest of All in common! :-)
February 03, 2009
Memory
Today I played the game "memory" with a two year old. Basically it was a game of "identify objects" because I just laid out one half of the pairs facing up, on the ground and held the other half in my hand and then I'd hand the two year old the card and say, "find the matching *fill in the blank*"
At first he'd always say, "I do sees it!!" Where?! " and then just when I thought he'd given up interest all together he'd spy the rocketship or the birthday cake ( random pictures!) and he'd laugh and laugh and say "OOOoooOOH there it is!"
I feel like there's an analogy in there somewhere but I'm too tired to find it. So I'll leave that up to you guys.
In other news, I ended up watching TV in the middle of the day today. This was a first after being here a month. I feel like that's a sign that I should seriously get a job. ( HELLO!?! Universe?! Where's my job!?!?!) But, really it was just a fluke. I had plans this afternoon but they called and canceled. So see?! It wasn't my fault I watched that episode of Alias where they finally take down SD-6 (season 2 baby! this is when the show started to get weird!)...
I have instigated a prayer meeting before Bible Study on Tuesdays. So far not many people are coming. It reminds me of my days of starting 1pm prayer back in Uni. And I am encouraged that even the prayers of one or two are heard in heaven. I am excited that once again we have the chance to see prayers being answered and at the same time reminded that we are NOT doing this in our own strength!!
All I want right now is a Little Caesars Pizza. I've been wanting one for like a week now and today I thought I'd sudate my craving my getting a personal pan pizza at Pizza Hut. Not. the. Same.
Now I want my LC even MORE! ( and I don't mean Lauren Conrad from the Hills...geez people, keep up!)
At first he'd always say, "I do sees it!!" Where?! " and then just when I thought he'd given up interest all together he'd spy the rocketship or the birthday cake ( random pictures!) and he'd laugh and laugh and say "OOOoooOOH there it is!"
I feel like there's an analogy in there somewhere but I'm too tired to find it. So I'll leave that up to you guys.
In other news, I ended up watching TV in the middle of the day today. This was a first after being here a month. I feel like that's a sign that I should seriously get a job. ( HELLO!?! Universe?! Where's my job!?!?!) But, really it was just a fluke. I had plans this afternoon but they called and canceled. So see?! It wasn't my fault I watched that episode of Alias where they finally take down SD-6 (season 2 baby! this is when the show started to get weird!)...
I have instigated a prayer meeting before Bible Study on Tuesdays. So far not many people are coming. It reminds me of my days of starting 1pm prayer back in Uni. And I am encouraged that even the prayers of one or two are heard in heaven. I am excited that once again we have the chance to see prayers being answered and at the same time reminded that we are NOT doing this in our own strength!!
All I want right now is a Little Caesars Pizza. I've been wanting one for like a week now and today I thought I'd sudate my craving my getting a personal pan pizza at Pizza Hut. Not. the. Same.
Now I want my LC even MORE! ( and I don't mean Lauren Conrad from the Hills...geez people, keep up!)
February 02, 2009
A life verse.
I got my Life Verse when I was 18.
And I'm gonna go ahead and call it a "life verse" because I don't see it dropping out of significance any time soon....
Today Amy and I did research. Or should I say I blindly googled and got no where and she contacted her "journalist friends" and found answers. She's seriously SO handy to have around...she researches my possible Future Life on the internet and I research her possible Future Life by actually living ( the army seems bent upon sending her husband on a MiT team too)...annnyway, the point of this story is that I have been feeling this unsettled feeling all day. I think its mostly the fact that my dearest and nearest here in Washington all seem to be laying Life Changing news at my door, reminding me that we just never know what's gonna happen.
To catch you up on the 'practical lives' of Brett and Abigail-we're currently waiting for the Powers That Be ( how do I get that job?!?) to tell us if Brett will get to stay in the infantry when he gets back from Afghanistan or will he will be changing to the Transportation Corp....and all of a sudden this is starting to feel real
I can't tell you how helpless I feel when the person I love the most is at the mercy at the people I hate most of all.
But, then I remember my Life Verse:
The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."
Then Moses said to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?"
And the LORD said to Moses, "I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name."
Ex. 33:14-16
It puts things in perspective doesn't it? It reminds me for one that that the Powers That Be are actually not that powerful afterall...AND it reminds me that no matter WHERE Brett and I go in a little over nine months the only thing that really matters is that His Presence will go with us.
And He will.
Friends, there is nothing to fear when He is the one who goes before you. I can attest to the fact that He will go with you even if you go to the opposite side of the world where you know no one. And He'll go with you if you go back to a hometown where you think you've got nothing going for you, and He'll go with you to a place that's scary and outside your comfort zone and He'll go with you to places you never saw yourself and places that you'd never thought you'd be and through it all He'll provide. He'll give you Friends when you're lonely, He'll give you direction when you're :ost, He'll give you provisions when you're Poor ( of spirit and body!), He'll give Love and He'll give Rest and above all in every place under the sun He will show Himself to be all that and More.
I know this to be true and I know it will continue to be the case. I do not know what God has in the future for Brett and I-and I suppose that's why thinking about it makes me all flummoxed in my tummy-because ultimately God has said:
"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matt 6:33-34
And I'm gonna go ahead and call it a "life verse" because I don't see it dropping out of significance any time soon....
Today Amy and I did research. Or should I say I blindly googled and got no where and she contacted her "journalist friends" and found answers. She's seriously SO handy to have around...she researches my possible Future Life on the internet and I research her possible Future Life by actually living ( the army seems bent upon sending her husband on a MiT team too)...annnyway, the point of this story is that I have been feeling this unsettled feeling all day. I think its mostly the fact that my dearest and nearest here in Washington all seem to be laying Life Changing news at my door, reminding me that we just never know what's gonna happen.
To catch you up on the 'practical lives' of Brett and Abigail-we're currently waiting for the Powers That Be ( how do I get that job?!?) to tell us if Brett will get to stay in the infantry when he gets back from Afghanistan or will he will be changing to the Transportation Corp....and all of a sudden this is starting to feel real
I can't tell you how helpless I feel when the person I love the most is at the mercy at the people I hate most of all.
But, then I remember my Life Verse:
The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."
Then Moses said to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone know that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?"
And the LORD said to Moses, "I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know you by name."
Ex. 33:14-16
It puts things in perspective doesn't it? It reminds me for one that that the Powers That Be are actually not that powerful afterall...AND it reminds me that no matter WHERE Brett and I go in a little over nine months the only thing that really matters is that His Presence will go with us.
And He will.
Friends, there is nothing to fear when He is the one who goes before you. I can attest to the fact that He will go with you even if you go to the opposite side of the world where you know no one. And He'll go with you if you go back to a hometown where you think you've got nothing going for you, and He'll go with you to a place that's scary and outside your comfort zone and He'll go with you to places you never saw yourself and places that you'd never thought you'd be and through it all He'll provide. He'll give you Friends when you're lonely, He'll give you direction when you're :ost, He'll give you provisions when you're Poor ( of spirit and body!), He'll give Love and He'll give Rest and above all in every place under the sun He will show Himself to be all that and More.
I know this to be true and I know it will continue to be the case. I do not know what God has in the future for Brett and I-and I suppose that's why thinking about it makes me all flummoxed in my tummy-because ultimately God has said:
"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matt 6:33-34
February 01, 2009
Amazing Feats
So, I made "Puppy Chow" ( the glorious Chex Cereal mix that combines the perfect tastes of chocolate, peanut butter and pure sugar in a marriage of unending love) for my Sunday Night Bible Study's "Soup-er-Bowl party" ( which incidentally was followed by our usual bible study, its great living on the west coast where the super bowl is in the middle of the afternoon! )
Annnyway, so I got into the car, placed the large bowl of Puppy Chow on the seat next to me and headed on down the road only to have my happy driving interrupted two seconds later when my car starts beeping as though a bomb was about to go off in my car. That's right, friends. I made SO MUCH SUGARY GOODNESS that it was heavy enough for my car to think that another person was sitting in the passanger seat and that "said person" needed to put their seat belt on.
So, of course, I strapped in my Choco-peanut Love Fest and we thus made it safely to our destination.
Seriously though?
Apparently I brought a child-sized desert to the event, excessive much? ( But, this is what happens when I'm left alone on a Saturday night)....But, no harm done.... it was ALL GONE at the end of the night.
Now that, my friends is sweet.
Annnyway, so I got into the car, placed the large bowl of Puppy Chow on the seat next to me and headed on down the road only to have my happy driving interrupted two seconds later when my car starts beeping as though a bomb was about to go off in my car. That's right, friends. I made SO MUCH SUGARY GOODNESS that it was heavy enough for my car to think that another person was sitting in the passanger seat and that "said person" needed to put their seat belt on.
So, of course, I strapped in my Choco-peanut Love Fest and we thus made it safely to our destination.
Seriously though?
Apparently I brought a child-sized desert to the event, excessive much? ( But, this is what happens when I'm left alone on a Saturday night)....But, no harm done.... it was ALL GONE at the end of the night.
Now that, my friends is sweet.
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